I do not hear you
I do not see you
I do not feel you
But I am continually reminded of you
By the constant nausea
The uneasiness through out my day
I carry a gift
The gift of life
But it is not joy I feel
Or a gift that I possess
But a burden
Shame and guilt fill me up
Where you use to be

You put your hands on me
But it was my fault
At least thats how you made it seem
I instigated  it
I deserved it
Men and women are equal
We should be treated equal
I hurt you
You hurt me

Maybe we were just two black holes colliding
Who couldn’t escape each other’s gravity
When we collided  
It sent ripples through the universe

A green chair
Smoke fills the room
Laugher
They hold each other close
She use to feel so alone
But they became each others home
She held on too tight
She was afraid to let him go
They knew he was going to have to leave
Now she craves to be home
She is all alone
All she hopes every morning is to wake up in his arms again
Only to be disappointed again
Again

I bet you never read my poems
The way I read yours
Everyday
It got me through the day
The words
That gave me the strength
The courage to make it
Now you are breaking me
Tearing me
You do not seem to care
That is the worst part of it all
I hold on
Because I thought what we have was more than passing time
If it is only memories to you now
I guess I did not mean very much at all

Sometimes I would feel I was freeing
But I fear I have sunken so deep I cannot see the way out anymore