She's the ink that forces my pen to bleed words

My Herion Queen

You're my only pain reliever, I'll never leave you,
If you don't want me, just tell me, & I'll delete everything just for you
Created & inspired by
My ride & die, hear my cry
No one gets me like you do
My drawing, my song
My poem, my life, my time
My dreams, my thoughts,
My sorrow, my anguish
My pain, my rain, my main
Take all of me, or none
Take some, get none
I'm no spare tire, nor liar
Keeping it real lovely lady
I hope you read my poetry
Someday discover me
Unravel your love for me
I clearly do my best
Put my words to the test
I can't believe my heart
Still wishes your kisses
Soft lips, & tender skin
Holding you tight at night
It takes two, for our right
To love each we must fight
Thee odds against us two
You're my ****** Queen
The only one
To leave me numb
Come take my pain away
I only ask for one day
When your presences in
When the moon is all in
My soul twin, you win
I give in, only take me
For a ride, my ***** spin
Love me with white candles, hold your handles, begin your deadly strangle
Release all your build up
Anger, desire with fire
Until you bust drop tired
A romantic night,
A candle light,
blanket cover us warm,
a sleepover you'll
Ask to do over and over
A night filled with
Longing love from above
Just me and you
Interlock the night away...

I kept apologising,
I didn't know for what exactly,
I kept saying I was sorry,
I felt I'd wronged you,
I'm not sure how,
But I'm sure I had,
So I kept apologising,
You were angry at me,
You refused to tell me over what exactly,
Maybe you didn't know either...
So there I was,
Sorry
And there you were,
Angry
And here we both are,
Relentless

there's nothing romantic about
stinging, shaking legs
and a still silence
surrounding lovers that creates
screams in their heads --
where did i go wrong
i'm such an idiot
there's nothing beautiful
about blood and self-loathing,
insecurities and guilt.
there's no turning around.
there's only moving forward.
and maybe they'll both be different,
but they'll probably stay the same.
and there's nothing --
nothing --
pretty about that.

I should enjoy life before life enjoys itself without me.