We like to pretend life was better
But the past was just as cruel.
People were not kinder,
The world — no more innocent,
We just had more light in our hearts.

The more I think about it the more I realize
I never wanted to say you didn't do anything for me because you did
But you never treated me like you treat her
I'm glad, a little jealous but I hope you continue to treat her well
Because I'm doing what I want
I have control over everything
I don't cut anymore
I don't panic about small things
I don't feel not good enough
Sure I can't trust people like I used to but that taught me a lot
Because people are deceiving especially those you turn a blind eye to
I feel desired, I feel happy
I don't feel alone even though I am most of the time
You helped, you made me independent and love all the parts of me
I was too afraid to look at
I found what I do like and what I don't
I have to thank everyone I've ever given my heart to for tweaking it
Because I learnt how to love and how to love me