And one was seen
Setting sail across the sea
Miles and miles of landscape
One thousand, and one escapes  
to ignite our breeze
With patience,
and altruism...
stoicism.
The gold sustaining in our ebb and flow
The moon enters you in an effort to glow
winter led you here
But in your voice spring appears
nothing more, than to be grateful
for such a jewel in a crown of thorns

I spent the night with you last night...
There is something so nice
About spending time without thinking twice
Or speaking about feelings and rules
We forgot the harsh conversations and sang like fools
we let go just for one night
You picked your guitar and I picked a play fight
I showered in close proximity to you
Entertaining thoughts of what you would do
If I walked into the hallway dripping wet
But I put on the pajamas you gave me instead
The oversized t-shirt smelled like you
In your flannel bottoms I slid into the living room
You smiled, said comhere
I draped my legs across your lap
losing all fear
We threw popcorn at the tv
We laughed at each character’s misery
You tucked me in and held me tight
I learned the taste of your skin last night
So what if we aren't in love in the end
All I will ever need is for you to truly be my friend
And keep kissing my mouth
As if it's a wound you can mend
I don't want to be your girl
But I don't want to be just another endeavor
I want you to bury me in your mind
And stay not too close
but not too far
Forever

My God,
are you here, inside my heart?
or above me putting my tears in a jar?
are you in the sunlight
reminding me to smile at such a sight?
did you knit me together so tightly
I cannot fall apart?
because when I think I might
I simply land in your arms
your quiet voice is my sweet perfume
only your face I wish I knew
you have made me once
and you're making me anew
you are the strangest love
and my only truth

do you find it necessary
to sneak inside my head
when I am trying to enjoy my morning
having just risen out of his bed
where he was soft and kind
but I cannot enter a sublime state
instead, I feel horror
realizing whats to blame
my unannounced tears on
oh god. what have I done?
I cannot sleep with one
because my heart lies with another
who doesn't seem to want it anyway
give it back
don't you do this, grace
get out of my head
like that song you always sang
stuck
and it feels like a constant headache
ache
I am aching to only be touched by one pair of hands
even if it means I break

You don't have to touch me to make me feel whole

I don't think about your body, I think about your soul

When you talk about your family, I see you're pure at heart

When you show me your work ethic, I see how you make art

You have made a lovely home and created such a space, in which every time I enter I feel safely in that place

You could read to me and do nothing more
You impress me as a person and that's something I adore

You are smarter than me and it makes me kind of mad
You reciprocate my wit and that makes me really glad

People talk about you and I secretly am proud
knowing who you are, I'm thankful God has allowed

I wish to be what you are to me
So valuable and true

I hope you look at me and see the things,
that I will always see in you

The sound of your voice is the warmest bed I have ever laid in.

if you are reading this, which is highly unlikely
just know I tried to fix it and I am sorry
I hate that this was a scare
but hurting you is not something I could bear
surely you know that by now
if not I don't know how
a misunderstanding is all it was
I would never mention your name
not even to the stars above
I hope this makes you laugh
and puts your mind at peace
I'll see you in fifty-seven days hopefully
until then we'll pass
both our tongues-in-cheek.

when the devil comes out,
you slice me open
your breathing gets loud,
my body gets broken
you climb in my bed,
I'm too scared to scream
your evil eyes tell me,
"do not make a scene"
your hands on my body,
my lungs hold in a breath
every night I live through,
this torturous death.

It's funny how I can get over so quickly,
The thing that once inspired me so intensely.

I've locked myself in this stall for the third time
to stare at the marks you left on me last night.
I want to even though it will hurt
so silently I lift up my skirt.  
I slide my hand across the bruise on my inner thigh.
The pain turns me on as I close my eyes.
I walk back to class hoping no one will see
the red in my face, or the state of my knees.
With the thought of your body, I smirk at my desk.
The possibilities of what you'll do to me tonight, poisoning my head.

is it painful
            when you crave
                to put your neurotic love
                         into a hot bath
                                and wash away the insanity
                                         all the people "watching" him
                               all the things coming for him
                        you try to soak him into a dream
                 you don't want him to become sane
              but you want him to be aware enough
         to blow bubbles off his hand
    toward you

You do have a smell.
I remember you asking,
though I was too drunk give you a serious answer.
Deep and sophisticated,
not so sharp that it doesn't make me feel sort of warm.
The slightest hint of grace in it,
inviting me in when you put your arms around me.
Your presence lingers with me.
It makes me feel soft even when I'm alone.
I am starting to see myself as I would want you to.
You do have a smell.
You smell like the color violet,
and it is healing me.

In my hour of distress
I find solace in your steadiness
Every tear you repurpose
When my mind is a furnace
You are the mouth I use most eloquently
Without you, I fear I could not speak
An open window when I have no doors
You rest in my hands, and I in yours

I saw a picture of you today.
The first time in a year
my brain developed a clear image of your face
not having to work with just recollections and memories.
A ton of weight being thrown on my chest
That's exactly what it was like,
Trying to push the breath out of my lungs.
Tears came, but I did not move.
I did not make a sound.
I have turned you into such an imaginative thought,
That the reminder of you being a real person shocked me.
I saw your hair on the screen and immediately smelled it.
I saw your hands and remembered the way you cradling my face in them felt.
Every scar I've worked so hard to forget
Flooded my brain all at once.
You and I loved in a different life.
Today I realize we’ve both died and began new ones.
I have loved someone else in between me and you, how crazy is that.
Kinda makes you wanna laugh doesn’t it
How absurd that fact seems.
You are apart of my childhood,
And childhood has just ended for me.
You really are just a recollection of mine.
A memory.

you gave me a word to hold onto
it got me through the night
felt nice for a while
but we both know this isn't right
keeping your distance is a crime
I know this by the hurt in my chest
someone's placed you here in front of
me as a torturing test
you've put a gun to my head and I'm asking to die
for the sake of being dead
what I would do for you to crawl out of her
and into my bed