18/F/Colorado I want to share my peotry and take some advice.
I suffer from chronic PTSD, anxiety, and depression. I am using poetry to share my thoughts and escape reality and cope with my past and my uncontrolling future. 22 followers / 265 words
Beautiful life when you can stab anyone with a knife it is an existence with constant silence a poor reality with stable brutality all have consciousness still so lifeless life is filled with foolishness though full of ungraciousness it can be painful yet so graceful
I wish I could tag all the people that left my life. I wish I could tell them how happy they made me, then how much I cried when they left. I wonder if they cared as much about me as I did to them. I wonder if they remember the memories, laughs, and tears we shared. The many times we laughed until our stomachs hurt and tears came to our eyes. The days I would come to them crying. The days when our innocent hugs became my favorite. The time when they said I meant something to them and we cried and smiled. Or did they just push it to the back of their heads? Do they care? Because the memories we shared were so important you can't push them back. They remember, and I don't think they will ever forget. I know I won't. I sometimes hope things will go back to the way they were. I sometimes wish I could see them one more time and talk like we did, laugh like we did, and just have fun. But time is moving faster than ever and we are losing our chance. Soon, my hope will be gone.
Did you flinch? Did you shed a tear? You made my stomach winch, my eyes filled with rivers full of tears. Did you regret? Or was I your toy? Because all I could was fret. I felt anything but joy. You left me broken. Used my heart as a token. Do I ever cross your mind? I doubt I do, you're too blind. You're anything but kind. Having my heart in your fist in a tight clinch.
The joy of your touch leaves me breathless Your warm air leaves me gasping The ecstasy of your presence leaves me high Yet now you are gone I'm left alone in a cold room No warmth to embrace Though the thought of you still leaves me ****** high My mind is making up for you All of our wasted Seconds Minutes Hours I imagine your Touch Breath and Love Then I am back in the moment when I am wrapped in your love Safe Warm and Loved