I fell into a deep angry abyss of rage.

I've never had *** ... But I  hear it's amazing when it's with someone you truly love.

I'm running out of pain pills for my headaches
Im getting less upset that you don't want me
The pain I felt is now numb
And it seems the rain doesn't effect my outlook anymore
Either way I'm colder than I was before
My skin doesn't warm up at the sound of your voice anymore
Things around me are quickly changing
But I'm still intact with my feelings

I've taken my time and thought
about relationships
My past mistakes and my future goals
I put my old relationships and old feelings in a box
I burned it to ashes and wished it away
I didn't know what to do
I was lost until I finally came to the conclusion that I just Need someone who needs me.

I just wanna know how guys can use a girl
Abuse her emotionally
Engage in ****** contact
Then leave her
And doesn't feel a **** thing.

You kissed my scars that I stubbornly placed on my skin
How could you not expect me to fall in love?

I feel as though I'm waisting away
Like I'm just a color on a paper slowly fading