Sometimes you take the L and learn
Dealing with your emotions is hard
Trying to not be vulnerable trying to help
It ***** when you care more than most
Venting doesn't help being humble
Trying to do what's right no matter
Proved wrong feeling cheated
Robbed of joy doing what you love
On the outside looking in
Holding back tears such agony
Made out to be the bad guy
Trying to be normal never gonna be
Always excluded or treated different
Taking on the burden shaking opening up
People don't care unless you produce results
Quick to point out your flaw
Never happy for your efforts
Waiting to see you fail
Smiling at your down fall
Expecting the worse is normal
Hoping things get better
While you wish them the best

It ***** when you're trying to change and you feel provoked. Giving your best while they bring out the worse in you. Just pray and walk away.

Dealing with that coworker, who does nothing but takes credit. Sad that I have to say "I'm joking" when I'm being sarcastic. I was insulted, I'm doing my best not to argue or feed into the drama. I lead by example I bust my *** get in there get it done. While the lead just knocks everyone.
Seen those true colors going to change things by working harder. Talk to the team hopeful work together around the problem. It ***** how one person could ruin everyone's day.
Everyone wants has problems just trying to make work better. I don't need another rude person in my life I already have cousins that make thongs awkward and uncomfortable. I don't need that at work.

Not time to hate got work to do
Not taking on criticism
They aren't doing my work
Done proving myself
Just trying to better myself
Working harder working
Being smarter prefer to be alone
Working behind the scenes
Able to get it done have fun
They don't have your heart
Different mindsets brewing fueds
Trying to find a common goal
Done complaing do the work

That internal struggle within fueling the words to write. The internal struggle losing sleep refusing to accept defeat. Doing what's right not trying to argue or fight.
Praying others would try instead of campaign to justify their lazy. Holding a job hostage because you don't get a raise or not doing the work why expect change. Be the change make a difference so over all the nonsense all the defensive behavior because deep down they are wrong.
Too many people are proud to admit they are wrong and say sorry. It might not fix the problem but change comes from understanding. Trying to create lost in those moments. Over all the negativity and hate. Disconnected about to recreate those moments can't go back trying to give life to my imagination.
Scared go gain all the pain when it's taken away. Feeling unworthy too many did me *****. Sorry if I get too wordy. Learning to tap into the heart. Writing it becomes an art of what's floating around in this determined mind.
Asking what matters how can you do things without driven by hate insulted because others can't debate trying to bully you because of your beliefs. Not imposing trying to understand. I might disagree no reason to make me a target.
I'll keep being me something. I'll never regret because your mad you'll forget all the good that was done. Emotions like a loaded gun ready to go off.

I'm trying not to be a walking contradiction. It's hard make things better for everyone not focusing on myself. After being sick Trying to recover and not holding back on the work.

Always a team player treating others work like mine. When it's my work the half *** effort and not caring bothers me. Time for everyone but stuck doing everything last minute.

I just do what needs to be done not sit back and complain. Taking the blame. Do something about it stop feeling sorry for yourself. I don't care for pity parties. Do the work

You get it out tell the truth. Everyone tried to shut you down, keep you grounded. All you want to do is take off get to the next level. Listening to the negativity made the world numb. Blocking everything out a clear mind.
Learning to cope deal with these emotions and feelings. Being a child a cry baby told stop being a ***** not able to express yourself because parents dk how to deal with you. Told to tough it out plow through. Put your head down get through to the end.
You miss out because you are distracted by getting it done. Trying to make it happen, be the one. who did it because they said it couldn't be done. They didn't believe in you so it make you want it more. Writing is a voice, doing the work getting closer coming up short. It's like a puzzle trying to complete it from all angles and with the right piece getting closer to completing the whole picture.