Being a man learning to trust himself. Use to be scared to mess up and make a mistake. Facing fears a new obstacle of people with their own situation able to adapt to the situation.
Trying to understand usually focused on the work not drama or people but those set backs become detours and distractions. Asking questions not getting the answers tired of the run around. Learn to do it yourself the best of your abilities if they want it done another way. They could explain the changes and how it should be done.
Years of being excluded treated like a no one. Has been rewarding those people made it easier to understand yourself speak up say what you want because they have nothing to offer you acting like their shady behavior did you favor. Working quietly rising to the next level

He decided to stay out of it work was way more important than drama. These thoughts are dark and deep could change the tone. Straight forward mostly honest getting no love or respect. Just stayed quiet observed listen to the what was going on.
Always tired demeanor changed working through staying honest and true. Things got wild so personal things got cruel.

As he got older he didn't have time for drama. He didn't feel bad for people that did drug or drank because they chose self destruction over life. Sad that some chose their bad habits over their family.
Some think they can pick and choose when they want when to participate. Be their full-time or don't bother wasting everyone's time. So much is expected but nothing is put out.
Growing up poor was feeling unworthy but once you got older you worked hard and through it. So many things to learn and rise above. Mostly learned by doing get in there make it happen.
Learning to lead mostly inspire those who want to make it and put in the time to do so. Some think it but never put forth any effort to get to the next level. Being social is hard because your agenda is to get the work done and keep gaining and growing while others don't care going through the motion without any effort.
Finding self motivation because the people you think are on your team have your back are the ones talking. Not doing any work trying to place themselves above you but not doing anything. They could have their criticism back all those rude remarks because they'll try to break you then try to install some of their ideas like if they care or know what's best for you.

Changed his mindset because everyone makes drama and can't get along. You can't say anything but they think they have the right to judge everyone. They get use to disrespecting everyone acting like people owe them. Would rather be an outcast than pretend to be someone else. Not going through them for other things that go on. Strongly dislike when other people's crap becomes others problems which has nothing to do with them.

Been writing for years don't need much to be happy. Making the most of things and what's given. So many haters and doubts quick to turn on you once they don't get their way.

Talking about you no one is talking about them. Trying to get the best of you while they are at their worse. Knock you down while you put out your best not competing or comparing just working hard. Focused on the task staying strong growing in the craft.

Reaching out to those mentors and those who remained loyal. Those that stayed true that's hard to come about now a days. Earning your place so many think it's given. Helping the team keeping them united. While everyone is divided due to personal issues.

Taking life to serious lighten up. Lots of ups and downs. Saving up wanting to get out enjoy life. Break the cycle of the everyday routine. Seeing others for their true colors cutting ties and keeping a distance. Would never do that to them and why do they think it's okay.

Not worth getting worked up over easier to talk about it. Process everything thankful for the friends. That listen able to share with open up without feelings and emotions being thrown in your face. Lightened up over others actions and behavior not responsible for them. Been responsible for how I communicate participate doing the job in and out make that money. stay strong positive through those difficult moments.