He laid in bed wondering if he'd find the one. After one day relationship he decided to do what he loves. He was happy not looking for approval. He just did when all he received was criticism. Feeling like he couldn't do anything right. Someone was always mad or offended. He always took shots from his loved ones the truth came. It feel like another enemy got close to hurt him so much betrayal. Instead of owning up they'd blame him for play the victim because others neglected them or ******* over stuck receiving the backlash.

Use to being alone noticed some have it all, and not happy. Always on the outside looking in accepted not always going to belong, or fit in. Always try to understand before coming to terms with that's how things are with certain people, or events.

On the mats they don't take you serious. Making them work for the submission short means nothing. The sport is not about strength, but technique form. Being able to take the lessons put them together. Find a sequence or pattern to stay in the match. Its about a balanced offense and defense. Eccentric and concentric motions playing off the opponents movement.

Use to talk to other writer all they do is make you feel good or make you feel like you can't write. Asking you to critique their work help them get better, it's their life their story. Who am I to correct their work not fond of critics. You've done the work put in the time, how are they are talking. Tell you it's like something else, or try to take away from the efforts made. Another day another up late writing they can't take that away. Pushing out all this anger by fake phonies. Will not be consumed by their hatred that infected them.