Trying to fill those pages pages not sure how to feel or what to write. New year new day to wake up write do it better at night with music playing. Should be sleeping up late with these raw emotions learning to deal with these feelings that don't always make sense.

This year has been tough trying to show emotion but when you protect your heart people think you don't care. Years of being ignored or talking to people who show no interest in what you are saying. Its okay to be alone and figure out what yo I want.
Losing loved ones makes you appreciate life and those that care and take interest in your life.
Social circles shrink and getting stuck in a routine work and home. Thankful to be working since many aren't. The world has showed its dark side so many beliefs that would do anything to be hear to make a point. Trying not to lose faith and walk with grace giving it all to God.

Saying good bye is hard
Especially when you're not ready
You are tired Id like more time
One more day to share a laugh
Make a moment I've grown
Learned so much taking your advice
Work hard and take the initiative
You served your country and a hero
Thank you for serving our family
Your moral code and ethics will live on
Still in denial cant believe you're gone