Tragic changes happened
A curve ball was thrown
Monkey wrench in the machine
All the bad that kept happening
Stayed positive through it all
Friends divided for adult lives
Failed relationships cutting ties
Stay around for too long
Only one left standing tall
Asking where did it go
How did this happen
Reflecting staring in the mirror
Might be gone now can't forget it
Treasured in the heart living on
In fading memories lost time replaying

A rebel who enforced rules
Went against authorities
Now complying with it
Asked questions to be ignored
Never got answers denied
Told the truth seen as crazy
Stayed loyal seen as weird
Honest so many mad offended
Being made out to evil
Others negative opinions
Lies influence judgement

Things were said back and forth
Not a fair exchange respect is silent
While loud is insecure
Protected them looked out
Had their back a surprise act
Not expecting that the betrayal
It hurt so much things got bad
Not mad or sad just disappointed
Turned away from the pain
Friendship over faded away
One sided contributions
Two faced actions no more

Not sure how to feel
Not sure how to deal
Facing another obstacle
Lots of growth changed over time
Others think you're the same
Couldn't see eye to eye
Not arguing or fighting
Left it in the past moved on
Eventually crossing paths again
Sober mind coped with pain
Wreck less thinker still destroying
Thoughts of pain so much anxiety
Ignored only needed for favors
Then forgotten another after thought

Part of the world
Working to belong
Won't be kept out
Denied the dream
Pushed through
Can't focus on anything
Became an obsession
Can't see Beyond it
Or want anything else

Bouncing around ideas
Cant tell anyone
Not able to rely on others
Looked for an ear to listen
Not a mouth full of instruction
Figuring it out without guidance
Over the darkness need the light
Dark cloud over head fade away
Traded the pain for better days
Full of life lost in love

Made many mistakes
Just want to be forgiven
Old friends now strangers
Tried to reach out Keep the bond
Wishing and praying
Can't rewrite the wrongs
Tried to make it right
Not worthy of another chance
An opportunity to be welcomed
Part of an old life that's tainted
That will never be the same
Ruined relationships hurt others
A dark time that weighed heavy
From trying to be normal
Treated differently so unfair
Had to stay away the distance
Everything fades away
Feelings are lost with time
Emotions change let go of grief