Someday are harder than others; I'm glad I made it through today
People will criticize but not look at themselves first
Trying to understand other mindsets is hard when you cannot make sense of the logic
In a new place mentally out of my comfort zone
Learning to communicate with people
who are set in their ways
I don't expect them to change
They do expect so much from me not always able to please everyone
but they do not accept everything about me feels like I'm being set up to fail

Some days are bad most are better
Not letting bad habits over come the good deeds
Love family but some are all about their greed
Be with someone you love treats you right
Why settle for less when you deserve the best
Be with someone you love not use one another for selfish gain
Failed love can't be repaired the pain will strike a nerve
Words full of lies that mean nothing failed out you pretend everything is fine
Two world's collide instead of unite the after math only time will tell

Always in my head my mouth gets me in trouble
All these phonies dish it out but can't take it
I'm too honest can't keep holding back while they fake it
Not worthy of my time for not liking me you keep saying my name
Not interested in the games you play so stay away
Only when you need something you are nice
Half the time you talk like you are better
All your nonsense has me saying whatever
I'd rather write than fight helps me sleep better through the night
You spread lies and you're the one with all the bad vibes
Making others look bad is the only way you survive

Don't know how much more I can go
In pain from the inside it bleeds out
Been going strong feels like everything around goes wrong
Staying calm while everyone gets worked up
Mind my mouth while many are just talk
Sick but keep working like it don't bug me
You cheated now you make me out to be the shady one
Talk bad about everything turns out you are worse off
Not waiting around because you are a no show
Or wasting my time because you are a lost cause
Told myself be great all you do is hate
Blame everyone since you can't own up
I may not be the one but I at least showed up
Talk like you're grown up but not doing it
Listen to your own advice instead of trying to control others
Talk big but once someone tells you you get **** hurt

Not one to complain if it's not in my favor I don't care
Keep working hard going strong do what's right not into empowering evil deeds
Not buying into the wicked not one to cheat to win
Not into the cheaters a bunch of man eaters
Golddigger who claim the prize but did nothing
They don't deserve to be their stealing the credit
No more lies or buying into them
Cut me out talk bad out me you'll regret it
You decided to oppose me don't ask me for a favor forget it
Worked hard and sick still fighting to make it to the end
Someone get praised for doing nothing
While I do as much as possible not even acknowledged

Last write of the night they ask what bugs you most
When family talks bad about one another and can't get along
The intensity wrong the pride going strong but the family will survive
Once a best friend sad it came to an end over a chick that played everyone and even played herself
Said sorry so many times but it won't ever be right back in the days we use to be tight
Had to cut the cord for you treating me bad that doesn't make you right
Never forgiven or with your shady ways
I use to be self destructive set in my ways not like that anymore
No more bad habits trying to live instead of lose it all so much I worked for
Too bad I'm not dead inside from being around others who made me feel like a no body destine to become somebody
Friend to foe these bad vibes need to go no killing my good deeds over your negativity
Wanted something more do who you are anymore in your eyes I'm the bad guy in your story stop spreading lies
Admitted my wrong now your trying to shame me thought you were better now I stay away and whatever
Told myself grow do more for your life do better work with what you got adjust and adapt focused on pursuing a dream
It means everything to me and means nothing to you killer me off write me off use to be close now you pretend not to know me

These have been confessions all these heavy burdens off my heart
From fighting to tired no longer wired
Gave up trying to please everyone eventually they hate me and bad mouth me
Got to know them or so I thought now they are pretending to be someone else
I've always been me they make me out to be the bad guy in their story
Never said anything behind their back to their face
They don't like my honesty I'm the first they will replace for a yes man
Showed you love over all the disrespect neglect blame me for your faults
Had to cut ties say good bye no need for the lies protecting a heart that cries
I forgive you while you hold a grudge judge everyone pointing a finger like a loaded gun.