Standing in the hot sand the ocean breeze hits my face. The sound of the ocean waves crashing. The sound of laughter people playing in the sand splashing in the water. You touch your toes in the cold water the tide rises to your ankles. The you walk close as the water moves up your leg debating to jump in or walk till the water consumes your body. Water is waist level the worse part is water on your back but once the refreshing water take you in you become immune. The tide pulls you in but will release you. The end of the day the tide tossed and pushed you around feeling drained exhausted but a much needed Beach day so it will talk all the stress and worries away.

On the twisted road driving through the forest.
The road slippery and wet from the rain. The rain and cold feels right but heading home from the summer. My life as an adult up north and my childhood in socal. From hot to cold weather not sure where I belong but my heart is in one while my mom thinks about the other. Lots of love for both but can't decide

Over taking the blame when it's none of my business. You take your frustrations out on me but not taking it anymore. I'm always the bad guy, it's never good enough. I meant well trying to make things better in the end you rip me a new one tear me apart. I love and accept you when you are full of flaws. I accept them while you are quick to reject me. Not trying to argue or fight because I've played the game with your bully ways there is no winner you aim to hurt while I walk away.

It's hard to sleep this summer heat
My mind is racing so much to write
Another ******* up night with bad sleep patterns
Hard to sleep sharing my thoughts with a pen on the pad
Music makes me feel able to relate
Overall being judged and the hate
Close my eyes trying to rest but wide awake

They always ask me why are you single? Because I'm not good at relationships. Maybe I love the wrong people because they love someone else with no regards for me or my feelings. Maybe I'm not ready since the wrong people are attached to rather than accept me they try to change me or make me out to be someone I'm not. I'm not quick to give my heart to anyone especially after being hurt and broken many times. When I'm committed they run away when I'm not interested they are quick to force their way. I prefer natural and for it to feel right; I do not like forced or rushed because it fails over that outcome.

Just because you talk louder and faster doesn't make you right. It's better to think what your saying and be resourceful than waste everyones time. Of course you come off as smart when you are talking about things no one understands or knows what you are talking about. You like to discredit others but don't like being questioned. When you speak you expect to be praised when I speak I'm surprised my opinion is being valued or heard. You don't take others feeling or have consideration as long as the perks are in your favor. How you treat others says a lot about a person. I grew up respecting my elders sometimes I could correct them but I listen polite since they should know better but that's not always the case. Smile and speak when spoken to.

Today was long staying positive feels like things can be going wrong. Doing what's right not looking to start a fight. I told myself to inspire **** and burn like fire. Never quit or back down start bad mouthing me once I turn around. I respected you while I said it to your face. I'm staying calm because you making me mad is me letting you stay in my head and you offer me nothing but bring out the worse in me. You give me your worse I'll give my all and be at my best move to the next level not go back down sink to yours.
I got better things to do than waste my time with you. Been thinking of ways to change things can't continue to be the same.