can't be no one else no
can't trust myself though
can't love a situation
or fix everything broke
still try to anyway
keeps following me home
could never love me back
yeah i already know

locking the back door
left open the window
if you notice, it's on accident
otherwise it won't close
wanting it to end
but wanting to be chose
knowing it's all for *****
passing deathly serious notes

somewhere i'd swear
between freefall and impact
i'm using the opportunity
to find my way back
to the crack that
i crawled out from
detailing the path
to what i've become
using the story
to backtrace my soul
before i lose the powers
of the rabbit hole

i didn't wanna listen today
so that meant 'my vibe was off'
i didn't wanna cater to your feelings
or be subjected to you going on and on
about your poor decisions
when you consistently devalue our bond
i'm tired of feeling like we're getting somewhere
to get proved embarrassingly wrong
you pick everyone and everything over me
so i just couldn't care anymore
when you asked me to tell you how i felt
you just looked so detached and bored
i don't even know why you want to be friends
apparently you're looking for something more
i'm just tired of ripping up my feelings
to help you bandage yours

it's really sad if you think about it
how fast we burned to nothing
thats why i don't think anymore
so if you're running out of reasons trust me
there goes another one
add it to the pile of flaws i've accrued
in this process of trying to become
loved by you
walking away with nothing but my pride
in the end
wouldn't dare reach out now
or bear to call you a friend
it's easy to say it now
but you would've never said it then
you didn't even have those kind of thoughts
and haven't had them since
you would be the world's biggest liar
if you tried to say you felt the same
you're sparing no feelings and frankly i'm insulted
how easily you could lie to my face