"You'll bleed for those kisses
And wonder why you're so pale."

Every last drop
till you're shaking and frail

Just to feel those lips
You'd die countless times

Living doesn't mean a thing
If you can't feel alive

And the only thing that stirs my soul
Is your  presence

As my addiction for your love grows
My will to fight this lessens

There is light for you to know
The wings you have are not for show
Use them to fly, make rain alright
The stars go far, make that your sight

Do you ever feel TOO alive?

i was never a jealous person
i swear that’s the truth
but now it has overwhelmed me
out of the blue

i never was a jealous person
i always wanted what was best for the group
i always sacrificed my desires
to have some place to belong to

i never was a jealous person
that is until i met you
you were something i wanted more
than the belonging i unsuccessfully pursued

i was never a jealous person
those were feelings i thought i outgrew
never thought i would feel this way
but i could never imagine the things i’d be put through

i was never a jealous person
so you must understand why i’m confused
i was so, so careful
never biting off more than i could chew

i was never a jealous person
i always had such a positive attitude
but now that has disappeared
peekaboo

now i am drowning in jealousy
and i'm not sure what to do
holding the loaded gun in my hand
praying i'll never try to shoot

i want to say sorry
but how do i apologize
for not doing a **** thing wrong

the way i feel
makes me feel so rotten
inside me the stench is strong

you say you didn’t mean it
that i’m twisting your words
flipping the conversation on its head

i want to believe that
i’m just making this up and worrying too much
but i’ll stop worrying when i’m dead

i want you to be happy
but i’m underwhelmed with
the choices you make

supportive enough
to be called a friend
but even then you ask for space

my hands begin to shake when
i see you pushing her
against the wall

my vision is hazy
from the tears and sudden rush of anger
why do i even care at all

you said you see me as a sister
a friend
you laugh at the possibility of anything else

i watch you two
hurt each other
all by myself

you said she’s mad
what should you do?
definitely not ask me

i want to be helpful but look at my fake smile
my face is a lie
but you can’t see past it

you’re hurting me
why do you hurt me?
do you even know what you’ve done?

stuck watching the transition between
who you said you would be
and who you’ve become

i love you
and i’m sorry
i’m normally so nice and sweet

something has a hold of me
so familiar but unwanted
Jealousy

I want you
I want to want you
I need to leave you
I need to