Sometimes through the moments I see you,
my heart clenches painfully
Reminding me how glad we’ve stayed alive
To see those beautiful blue eyes shine,
Lighting up with joy seeing my tired face...

Sometimes through the moments I see you,
My lips quiver,
In shame of all the things I’ve told myself
So long ago, so many hateful things,
When tomorrow was bringing you to me all along..

Sometimes through the moments I see you,
I don’t know whether I want to look away or not,
Unknowing of all the heavy ink my skin has absorbed,
In place of lines drawn from knives,
Will be what you would like to see

Sometimes through the moments I see you,
I want to hide away from your gaze -
And at the same time, hold you so tightly,
Elated, scared, worried that
You’d just be a dream conjured up.

Sometimes through the moments I see you,
It’s like a walk through a sunlit park,
Sunflowers and roses and lilies and rare big red hibiscus,
Your touch warm enough to brush away the nightmares,
And bring out the best buried in me like seeds towards the sky

Sometimes through the moments I see you,
I shake and tear up,
You’re my world, my heart,
My joy, worth every tear and peal of laughter...

Sometimes through the moments I see you, I could only think of how much I love you.

Irises I will never see,

Hidden in the light that pours down

Like a painting coated in dust and dirt;

I've only to touch it

Brush them open, see them

The colors

The spectrum.

But in fear,

this I will never do

Or I'll only hold

a broken masterpiece.