To you, who's love is intoxicating
To you, who made me happy in a period of time

Because of you, you made me believe that there is hope
Because of you, little by little my doubt goes away

To you, who has given me a part of your world and making it my own
To you, who's craziness has not been seen by everyone but me

Because of you, the numbness starts to fade
Because of you, the light at the end of the tunnel shone

Who would have thought that because of you
The smile of my face became brighter

To you, who's love has come undone and done
To you, who's heart got torn apart

You deserve that kind of love that will make you feel whole again
I hope that I can make you feel that not just today but everyday

To you who i might have met since childhood
You gave me that feeling of wanting to be with someone forever

Not just that day, but also today
To you whom I love so dearly, Thank you.

She felt hurt when he betrayed her

She couldn’t describe the pain she felt, the way it made her numb to the point she cuts herself to make her feel.

She asked him, “Why would you hurt me like that?”

He responded, “because you gave me that chance to hurt you.”

Tears fell from her eyes, she fell down to her kness covering her ears because she has heard enough.

The words he said kept on repeating in her head like a broken record that she wanted to just smash until stopped.

Her heart pounded so hard that it made her want to rip it off her chest.

The hurt she felt destroyed her and up until now, the hurt remained.

You see this girl staring outside
the windows of DropOut in this city,
She curls a smile to all the people she sees
People would not really notice a wallflower like her;
Her existence was absolutely meaningless.

That’s what she loved about the place
no one would care if she felt happy, sad or lonely,
Or just all the emotions together
no one can see her fences around her;
No one could understand what’s going on.

And she loved it because she did not feel vulnerable and she was selfish that way,
She saw things the way she wanted
She loved and hated the things she wished;
She showed no sign of admiration or affinity to anything or anyone.

Although she let her guard up
she never expected on meeting new people,
It was so unexpected that it made her feel secure and safe to be who she is
she loved the thrill of being absolutely terrified;
Now she knows she has changed.

These are barriers she was familiar with
these fences were her place for security,
this is where she felt like home;
she never felt lonely within them.

She would walk around town with these fences
she wouldn't put them down not for a second
people see her with different faces,
different personalities, different shades.

She always had a routine
walking here, walking there,
aimlessly following that routine
never thought of being caught of guard.

She never knew that a stranger would have such impact on her
she never saw a person so persistent, so relentless,
so peculiar to the point it makes her wander;
if she really has seen everything.

She could not describe what she feels
but she knows it's a warm and familiar feeling,
though she can't help but doubt if it was too good to be true
if this stranger was something more to her than she thought it would be.

She continues to doubt if risking on putting those fences down
are worth her comfort and security,
She is caught on a tightrope
not knowing to continue to strengthen her fences or not.

I have no words to describe
A man like YOU,
You knew from right and wrong.

You knew my predicaments
but you used them against me,
You played with me like a toy.

You were persistent on being "friends"
but how could i been so blind to not see,
A sociopath like you.

I often wonder why I answered your message
Why i forgave you that November day,
but at long last, you showed me you never changed.

And I again am to blame
Out of my heart,
I lost decisiveness.

I lost my perspective
I lost my trust,
and I lost my security.

A sociopath like YOU would not know
the fear and anxiety you leave your victims,
the trust issues and pain.

Hard to get.