YES I MADE IT THRU , YES
IM GONNA DO, JUST WHAT JESUS WANTS ME TO
ALL TO HIM I'D LIKE TO GIVE
BUT THIS FLESH KEEPS HOLDIN ME BACK
IF IT TURNS ON ME, IN THE DARK YOU SEE
EXACTLY WHAT YOU DONT WANT TO BE
I KEEP ON STRIVING AND BELIEVING, IN
ALL OF HIS MANY PROMISES

JESUS GAVE IT ALL, NAILED IT TO THE CROSS, NOT FOR IN VAIN, THIER WAS NO LOSS

ONLY GAIN FOR YOU & ME , THAT DAY
ON CALVARY, THE LOVE HE SHOWED FOR YOU & ME

HE COULDA CALLED A MILLION ANGELS
HE COULD CALLED AN ARMY DOWN
HE CHOSE INSTEAD TO LAY HIS OWN LIFE DOWN!

JESUS DID WHAT NO MAN COULD,
HE PAID THE PRICE
OF OUR SIN
ON THAT TREE
THEY CALL CALVARY,
OH WHAT JOY THAT SHOULD BRING TO YOU AND I

THE TEARS THEY FLOWED , THEY BURNED AND STUNG,

BUT NOTHING LIKE WHAT HE TOOK
WHEN HE WAS HUNG ON CALVARY

THE REJOICING SHOULD RESOUND
ECHOING THROUGH TH WORLD

THE SACRIFICE, HE PAID THE PRICE,
HIS LIFE, FOR OUR OUR SOULD, IN DANGER

WHAT LAY AHEAD, HE KNEW IT
WOULND'T BE THE STRANGER BUT ONE,
WHO CLAIMED TO FOLLOW IN HIS NAME

BROUGHT HIM DOWN, TO DEATHS DOOR
BUT JESUS KNEW, WHAT JUDAS DID NOT
JESUS HAD KNOWN, HE WOULD NEVER DEPART
BUT HIS ACTIONS WOULD PLAY THE PART
IN HISTORY AND THROUGHT THE ENTIRED WORLD
HE HAS ALREADY MADE A DIFFERENCE THANK YOU JESUS!
LOVE HOPE

WHAT'S A FATHER TO BE?
I DON' T KNOW , LET ME SEE.
ITS SAID THEY ARE KIND AND FRIENDLY
I'VE HEARD THEY ARE HONEST AND TRUE.
I'VE LISTENED TO STORIES ABOUT HOW THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO TREAT YOU
ITS BEEN TOLD , THEY'RE ALWAYS THERE WITH A HAND FOR YOU TO HOLD
SOMEONE ONCE SAID THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT
SEE I'VE ONLY HEARD THESE THINGS
IN REALITY I'VE BEEN CAUGHT
IN A FANTASY THAT MEN LIKE THESE
EXIST IN OUR REALITY
SOMETIMES IT IS SADLY A BRUTALITY
TO ACTUALLY HAVE A FATHER,
FOR HE IS JUST A MAN,
WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW,
HOW TO HANDLE HIS ANGER, AND HE LETS IT FLY BLOW BY BLOW
OTHERS THERE ARE THOSE, WHO WANT TO MAKE YOU TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES,
IN SADNESS, IN SICKNESS, THEY HURT YOU,
THEY TAKE AWAY YOUR FUTURE, YOUR SOUL
IT SEEMS LIKE THERE IS NO LIGHT IN THIS BLACK HOLE
THERE ARE THOSE WHO SAY TOO MUCH
THEY HURT THIS WAY BY THE MEAN HURTFUL THINGS THEY SAY,
BELIEVE ME I KNOW PERSONALLY, A LIFE, LIVED, AND LEFT BEHIND,

I have met a man, who is KIND,SINCERE, FRIENDLY,AND ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. MY DAD, I LOVE YOU

I STAND OUTSIDE MY WINDOW LOOKING IN
HOW DO I START, HOW DO I BEGIN,
WITH WHAT YOU DON'T SEE, A PROBLEM,
IT IS WHO YOU ARE.
WELL MAKE A CHANGE
STAND UP TO THE CALL
YOU SAID YOU WANTED ME AND NOW IT SEEMS AS IF ALL IT EVER WAS WAS A DOOM
TO HAVE BELIEVED AND HOPED, YOU LOVE  
THE ONE WHO WANTED ME, TO LOVE TO HOLD ME, TO KISS ME, TO CARE FOR ME ALL THE DAYS OF OUR LIFE,
WHERE DID HE GO, THAT MAN
INSIDE OF YOU DID HE SLIP OUT OR TAKING A BREAK
OR DIE?

HE JUST DISAPPEARED

SOMETIMES IT'S UNFAIR AND DOESN'T SEEM QUITE CLEAR
HOW TO THINK, HOW TO FEEL, HOW TO ACT
DO I ASK, DO I DARE, DO I BEG, HEAR UNFAIR
WHAT I ASK ISN'T MUCH JUST YOUR TIME AND TOUCH
YOUR LEADERSHIP WOULD BE WISE,
WILL IT EVER HAPPEN CAN YOU RISE
TO THAT JOB,YOU'VE BEEN CALLED
WELL, LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU'RE READY

you see me stand in pain
you just sit in stare, like well i don't care
you sit and don't help
not even when i'm in pain
it's so hard to believe
all you give is grief
not a shred of care
as if we ever shared
a single thought or idea
how can you sit, how can you not see
i need you, i want you, but you just sit
it honestly feels worse that a hit
no emotion, no reaction, no words ever
why should i have to feel like im always grievin

i want my son to have a dad
but is it the cost, me always being sad
you act like you don't care
you never help or share responsibiity
you never help with shopping,
you never help with mopping
you never help pick up our son
you never seem to do anything but look out for #1
i wish you could open your eyes
because the world you see, your missin
the days, the moments, the hours, with our son

7216

You look at me and shake your head with disgust
Im bigger than you so there for I must
Have habits that are slovenly and unclean
Do you have any idea how much it hurts you are so mean
I try really hard to help family
My friends in need to keep myself and house happy
Its so hard in the world today to sit and be judged
It never stops no matter what I do I feel begrudged
All I want is to me and be accepted as I am
I just wanna put clothes on and a smile
You do know if you asked I would walk that extra mile
I feel like I am about ready to bust, just a ****
Built to hold back, don’t say that
Must be fitting to their idea, their mold
Just makes me want to shut down, ok got it just be cold
Hearted. To all. Really is that what works for you
I am kind, I am happy , I am polite, I am not like you
I am giving, helpful, considerate, caring
No you are not and do not, you are not bearing
The scars that hide, way down deep inside
You are not weary, scared, hiding like a child
I try so hard to just "fit in"
I just want to feel like once, "yes your in"
What tho the cost, make me unhappy
But look nice, appearance is skin deep
That is my take on it
I don’t care your tone of skin
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care what car you drive in
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care what side of town your on
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care how much money you make
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care what you have on your lawn
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care, if others say you are fake
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care what medicine you are prescribed
GOD made you YOU
I don’t care what they think, they say you lied
GOD made you YOU

IF I SAID TODAY, I DIDNT KNOW
WOULD YOU STILL WANT ME, WOULD YOU SSTAY, OR GO
WOULD IT CHANGE IT ALL, OR WOULD IT REMAIN AND GROW
COULD WE BE WHAT WE ARE WHY NOT, I ASK YOU NOW
WHAT I FEEL IT IS SO STRONG SO DEEP SO SCARY THOUGH
I AM CONFUSED A LOT AND OFTEN TOO, I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW
THAT IS TRUE, I CANNOT PROMISE WHAT I DO NOT KNOW
I AM WHO I AM AND ALWAYS WANT TO GROW, NOT CHANGE TO FIT,BUT BECOME A BETTER ME.
AND MOST TIMES I'M GOOD ENOUGH, FOR ME WHEN I'M NOT IT REALLY SHOWS
YOU HAVE BEEN HURT ALOT, BY SOME, BUT WHY CAN'T UPI SEE. THEY ARENT ME.
I AM HOPE. I TRY HARD TO COPE WITH A LOT DAILY.
I CANNOT CHANGE SO MUCH SO FAST SO DRASTICALLY.
I HAVE SO MUCH TO LEARN,  YOU JUST MAY NOT WANT TO SEE
THAT I'M NOT ALL YOU CRACK ME UP TO BE , ALREADY.
                                                                   10/23/14

I'VE CRIED A THOUSAND TEARS FROM YOU
I WON'T CRY NOT ANOTHER ONE
I'VE WORKED, I'VE TRIED,I CAN'T I'M DONE
IT DIDN'T HAVE TO GO THAT WAY
I GUESS YOU CHOSE IT, AND
THIS IS WHAT AND HOW YOU SAY
GOOD BYE, ENOUGH, CAN'T DO, CAN'T TRY
WE'RE DONE , WE'RE THROUGH, I KNOW I'LL GET BY
AND KNOW I WILL FLY.
YOU'RE FREE, JUST BE,
BE HAPPY,
YES O AND,
I HOPE YOU ARE TOO
ALL PART OF A BIGGER PLAN GUESS ITS DONE
OUT OF OUR HANDS.
THE TIME WAS SPENT, IT ALL WENT
ACCORDING TO HIS WILL
IT HURTS, ITS HARD, IT'S FINE, I'M FINE, IT'S GOOD I STILL WILL FEEL
MY HEART'S NOT DONE YET, WITH YOU, NO MORE, THESE BARS , AND STONES, AND CHAINS ARE GONE, GONE THEY ARE GONE
DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET IT GO FOR REAL