click by
the end of this year
is even closer at hand
not yet down for the count
I hold onto these
last specks of time
because they  belong
to my life
with you
the start of the new year
takes
you  farther away
than ever

It'll hurt until it doesn't, and that's the only truthful answer I can give you.
***** anyone who says to get over it.
That it should take "this long" or "that long".
It takes
As long as it takes.
It will tear you apart inside every **** day,
Until suddenly you notice that you spent an hour without thinking of it.
And then a few.
And then a week,
And
Quickly and slowly,
You realize your wound has scarred over.
It'll hurt until the day it doesn't.
That is the only truth.