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 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
i wont.
i wont make another
passage in my
skin like i
used to.
i wont allow the
blade to control me
again over someone.
i wont let myself
get to where i
was just a
few months ago
because being who
i was isn't who i
want to be
now.

ive finally started caring
again and even though
it hurts sometimes,
the pain isn't as
bad as it was when
i had nothing left
inside.
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
8/20/13
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
in spanish we were
conjugating verbs-
hablar=halbo
(if you want it to
mean 'I talk')
hablas if you
want it to mean
He/She/It talks.
and so on.

by the third infinitve,
my mind completely
d     r     i f     t   e           d
by then.

at that time,
i thought of your eyes
and how they light
up the room.
i thought of your smile,
and how you make
me swoon.
i thought of
the words youve
said and
how many countless
times ive fell
for you.

and yet,
i come running back.
it seems like its the
only thing i
know how to
do.
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
8/21/13
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
i dont exactly have
anything to complain
about today.

the sun is shining
the music is nice,
my cat is fluffy,
hell,

today is ******* fantastic

im studying in my room,
im watching my nephew,
im drinking some tea,
and scrolling through
tumblr.

im messaging my friend(s)
im eating some pancakes
painted my nails earlier,
today is awesome.

ive started to think a
lot about myself lately
because all i do is
think about others and
its not fair to me at all.

when i go to homecoming
this week i will
smile and kiss my date and
be happy because hey,
im alive.

i wont show the pain
im feeling when i see
the man i love and
ill dance all night cause
i look ******* hot and
nobody can tell me i dont.

i wont let him get into my
thoughts and i wont let that
fabulous tuxedo he'll be wearing
distract me from the good things
in life.

like his smile or his
eyes or his 5 o'clock shadow or
his hands or his
height or the way
he bites his lip and
looks down or
how he says my
name.

no. i wont allow him
to get to me,
i have a dance to
attend.
well, he doesnt have a full beard but i keep forgetting what its called when a guy doesnt shave for a day or two and it starts growing back and it looks ******* hot. oh ****, my feels right now.
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
10w
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
10w
but, she asked you to
    stay and yet you
disobeyed?
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
sometimes when i
think of you the
bad dreams
disappear.

but, other times
they reappear and
hurt me more than
ever.

im still not sure if
you meant to hurt
me or to show that
you care,

but darling im in
hell and this isnt
really fair.
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
13w
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
13w
but, if the devil succeeds
then why do we get
punished in
hell?
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
i went up to you
and said "i got a
C!" and you smiled
and knew that i
was very proud.
you gave me
permission to
get closer with
your eyes and
i did.

you then smiled,
asked when my next
test was and i
answered back,
"in two weeks."
you smiled and
then we became silent.

i looked at you and
decided it was time
to tell you how i
felt.

"congrats, i heard you're
engaged. thats amazing."
and he smiled and said,
"yes, i am. its wonderful,
thank you!" and he had this
light in his eyes when he
said this to me.

i told him to have a
good day and before he
said anything, i walked
out.

i felt the need to puke and
cry and i wasn't sure of
what to do because
I'm so completely in
love with you.

im so happy for him
and i know i shouldn't
feel this way but,
i really wish he had that
same light in his eyes
when he talks to
me.
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
w15
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
R
w15
i wished to fit in
my dress and
now it hangs
off of my
chest.
 Sep 2013 Hollie Elizabeth
Born
If i should have a daughter ,

instead of "Mom,"

she's gonna call me "Point B,"  

because that way she knows that no
matter what happens,

at least she can always find her way to
me.

And I'm going to paint solar systems
on the backs of her hands  

so she has to learn the entire universe

  before she can say, "Oh, I know that
like the back of my hand."  

And she's going to learn

that this life will hit you hard in the
face,

wait for you to get back up just so it
can kick you in the stomach.

But getting the wind knocked out of
you

is the only way to remind your lungs
how much they like the taste of air.

There is hurt, here,

that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or
poetry.

So the first time she realizes

that Wonder Woman isn't coming,

I'll make sure she knows

she doesn't have to wear the cape all
by herself

because no matter how wide you
stretch your fingers,

your hands will always be too small

to catch all the pain you want to heal.

Believe me, I've tried

"And, baby," I'll tell her,

don't keep your nose up in the air like
t hat.

I know that trick; I've done it a million
times.

You're just smelling for smoke

so you can follow the trail back to a
burning house,

so you can find the boy who lost
everything in the fire

to see if you can save him.

Or else find the boy who lit the fire in
the first place,

to see if you can change him."

But I know she will anyway,

so instead I'll always keep an extra
supply

of chocolate and rain boots nearby,

because there is no heartbreak that
chocolate can't fix.

Okay, there's a few heartbreaks that
chocolate can't fix.

But that's what the rain boots are for,

because rain will wash away
everything, if you let it.

I want her to look at the world

through the underside of a glass-
bottom boat,

to look through a microscope

at the galaxies that exist

on the pinpoint of a human mind,

because that's the way my mom
taught me.

That there'll be days like this.

♫ There'll be days like this, my
momma said. ♫

When you open your hands to catch

and wind up with only blisters and
bruises;

when you step out of the phone
booth and try to fly

and the very people you want to save

are the ones standing on your cape;

when your boots will fill with rain,

and you'll be up to your knees in
disappointment.

And those are the very days you have
all the more reason to say thank you.

Because there's nothing more
beautiful

than the way the ocean refuses to stop
kissing the shoreline,

no matter how many times it's sent
away.

You will put the wind in winsome, lose
some.

You will put the star

in starting over, and over.

And no matter how many land mines
erupt in a minute,

be sure your mind lands

on the beauty of this funny place
called life..

And yes, on a scale from one to over-
trusting,

I am pretty **** naive.

But I want her to know that this world
is made out of sugar.

It can crumble so easily,

but don't be afraid to stick your
tongue out and taste it.

"Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your
momma is a worrier,

and your poppa is a warrior,

and you are the girl with small hands
and big eyes

who never stops asking for more."

Remember that good things come in
threes

and so do bad things.

And always apologize when you've
done something wrong,

but don't you ever apologize

for the way your eyes refuse to stop
shining.

Your voice is small, but don't ever stop
singing.

And when they finally hand you
heartache,

when they slip war and hatred under
your door

and offer you handouts on street-
corners

of cynicism and defeat,

you tell them that they really ought to
meet your mother.
Sarah k
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