reality feels like a dream. everything has taken on a haze, the edges fuzzy and soft. melting skies and dripping clouds, the sun painting the world in shades of gold moonlight passes like water through my fingers, dancing along the trees. down to you, my darling. swirling a halo around your head. you don't need the sun to shine, you create your own warmth. I bask in it, welcome it, long to be near you again. just so I may be warm too. are you real, or just a dream?
I'm dreaming of us. driving in your car, windows open. it's early and I can smell the ocean, feel its breeze as we coast through the trees. the tips of your fingers tap along the wheel to the beat of the waves. back and forth. a symphony of sound. your eyes find mine and they're sparkling. it's at this point I know I'm done for. I don't know how you did it, but I'm yours.
when you dream, is it of me? when it is quiet, do you still hear it? if you had listened all those times before, to my hearts steady rhythm, each thump calling your name. It used to beat for you, the sound loud in my ears. so loud I knew you heard. but you never answered. She is quiet now. sitting still in her home she has made inside my ribs. Waiting for the answer I know she'll never get.
Heaven and ****. Two sides of the same coin. God, up in his crystal tower, on his lofty thrown, flips it. Heads it's Heaven Tails it's **** Everything you've ever done leads right to this moment. Was it worth it?
your skin is warm under my hands, goosebumps rising under my finger tips. we have made a castle out of our blankets, just for the two of us. our bodies entertwined, like vines grasping at the sun. our voices only a whisper, their words a secret only we know. I wish we could be this way Forever.