Nobody knows how different I am
The outside of me is not afraid
Never ashamed
I smile and everyone believes
Of course nothing could be wrong with me
I laugh and talk and play along
Keep on existing like nothings wrong

Nobody knows how different I am
I'm tattered and broken beyond repair
Do not fret my dear, for i do not want your pity
My heart is crumbling and full of dispair
I'm scared and lost, clueless as can be

Nobody knows how different I am
And that will never change

Life
To me life is terrifying
Some people may fear death,
or the unknown
but I fear life.
Not physically living
Just the concept.
At any point in time
you can completely alter your life.
Cut all of your hair off
Go work out
Talk to that certain someone
Your life is really at the mercy of your own hands.
And that terrifies me.