I built us a house in my mind Imagine us sitting by the fire and looking into each others eyes Like a cheesy romantic scene from a 50s movie I swoon over you and let you consume my whole world But life is not a romantic comedy And the fairytale ending I created for us shattered When you told me you didn't love me like that Anymore
I'm on my knees Trying to pick up the pieces and I cut my hands but I still try and put us back together
A screen hums And I turn to see it playing back all the times you made me smile And of us laying down on a dock, listening to a song that reminded me of you, and staring at the stars deciding which one we would call ours And of me listening to your heart beating as you slept and feeling like I could never love anyone like I loved you again.
The hardest part of getting over you is the remembering I want to remember the bad things Like the first time you made me cry I want to remember why I left you in the first place And why didn't you try to fight for us
And I sat there and squeezed my head with my hands and screamed "WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME? WHY CAN'T I FORGET YOU? WHY DO I STILL LOVE YOU?" As you turn to you leave I catch a glimpse of your face It was as if a switch turned off in your head, it was soulless I feel a tug at my neck as you walk away with a rope in your hand Oblivious to where that rope ends.
You live in the city we both fell in love with And you are onto better things We both moved away from the hometown we fell in love in We both moved away to ease the pain of living without each other And living without the hurt that always followed us
I always imagined us moving there together Walking through the city at night Your eyes sparkle in city lights We could have sat in coffee shops Or on park benches We could have written beautiful things But you said lets leave us in the past And I am stuck in it...
Tomorrow I will be okay. I will wake up, make pancakes and drink my favorite coffee. I will buy myself a fancy dress And a book by my favorite author. I will go eat my favorite meal. I will watch people at a coffee shop And draw or maybe write a poem or two. I will come home and drink mulled wine And watch a movie that makes me smile. But for tonight, I will let my heart ache.
I wrote you a letter to tell you I still love you. You never replied. And I am sitting at home crying on the floor of my room. Because the floor is cold and it feels good on my skin. I was ****** to think that after all this time I would still be on your mind. Please baby, just talk to me and tell me I'm not crazy for thinking you liked me at all
How do I convince you to love me? I can make you tea and cookies Or maybe mac and cheese I can learn a song for you when you're feeling blue I can kiss your neck and whisper why I want to be with you I can wash your sheets and make your room neat I can make your favorite snack And if I do these things for you Will you love me back?
I want to hold you and lay in your bed and pick eyelashes off your cheek and kiss your forehead when you fall asleep I want to talk until 2 am about the universe and movies that moved us to tears I want to walk with you in the cold and wrap my arms around you and look at the christmas lights I want to run inside and jump under the covers and fight over who has to make the tea