It's getting bad again. An hour feels like four and days feel like weeks. I'm losing my motivation. Relationships that mean the most are breaking. I'm tired of waking up just to fight the same battles in my mind.
How do I cope with the pain. Everyday I drift away. I can't cry and I wonder why. Taking pill after pill. All I do is lay still. Music and yelling in the background. Just laying there wondering when this will end. Everything goes black and I wake up the next day with a worse pain. All I can think is "when will this all go away"
Running them deep in your skin Pushing it deeper into your skin Watching the blood drain from your wrist As your bath water turns red Your sister breaking the door open You lay there light headed telling her to leave You faint feeling shortness of breath Just to wake up the next day To feel even more pain
I have my earbuds in Blaring my music Walking down the hall You stop me to see if i’m okay I say i’m fine I realized that you can see straight through my lie
Drowning my feelings in whiskey Laying in bed drunk has me thinking Thoughts in my head Wishing I was dead I close my eyes Just to see you Blade against my wrist Wishing I could go Wondering what it would be like if I was dead
I say nothing Laying on my bed Music playing While I stare at the ceiling Phone going off Missed calls and voicemails Telling me not to do it Laying on my bed with a blade next to me Fingers twitching Lips quivering Thoughts of what they said Running through my head
Big thank to Orion Lesneski for helping me out when I have writer's block XD
All I hear from your room is screaming I hear sounds The sound of a hand landing on your face You act like everything's fine When in reality your dying inside
I look up, I look down, sometimes I look around Darkness is everywhere, Nobody,Nowhere, I hear screaming here and there, Nobody's there to hear prayer, This feeling is honestly not so rare