Get mad at my face
I won't say a word
I would be calm, speechless and polluted by your insulting words
I'll be on your bed at the early sun
I'll wipe away my tears and smile for you
I will be hurt because I love you
I'll endure your humiliation each time you hit the ground
Terrifying me!
I'll stay by your side and hold you tight
I'm not saying a word
Not because I'm afraid you walk away
But because I'm selfish
I don't wanna leave you
Cause I still love you
I am patient , blind Doesn't matter !!!
I am a ****** cause I still love you
I say I'm sorry
It's not even my fault
But remember my dear
One day you will regret cause I'm gonna leave you
One day You will be sitting alone
Watching my memory walking around
My ghost will torture you each time you touch the shadow of my shade
Because of your selfishness
It is over now
You will drink your tears and cry the pain away
and I'll be living the happiness even without you!

I knew it indeed, I was a tool.
I knew that your eyes carried a lot, another woman indeed.
I took the plunge as a body not a soul.
I don't have a heart, that is all.
Why did I cheat that pure love?!
to recall, to remember that love is incomplete, nor perfect neither loyal?!
I wanted to have fun no more.
to hurt myself and write, to write no more!
I didn't desire your cursed kisses or your fake whispers.
Thus, I wanted to hurt myself, cut my heart into pieces and broke the mirror!
to realize the fact I am a human being at last.
I am a dreamer in the land of reality! in the reality!
Liar! I would be called if I rambled on, I wasn't affected by this sad memory.
And, that my one and only mistake was a doubt, a truth, a story without any morals and themes....
Heart was not broken simply because it has no words .... words bled on my blog....Lovers lived together trivial love story No more !

A person of stone
His heart carries lot of pain
The pain his heart brought to mine
The world he asked forgiveness was mean.
A criminal of feelings
Sung cold words to my warmed heart
My heart was a piece of ice
It could not forgive the world so are we
The eyes bleed lot of emotions
No one can hear the flood of blood
The world of mine as a dreamer
Was going on chaos
I was shouting
Please realities please stop!
The devil glared at me with his red firing eyes
Smirked sadness
Took away my smile
Innocence sat calm
Hid in the murky corner
All what I had was pain and tears
The person whispered in my ears
He was powerful like death
Took my spirit and soul
Left the mind thinking all alone
What could happened if the little innocence
Suffered again

Get mad at my face
I won't say a word
I would be calm, speechless and polluted by your insulting words
I'll be on your bed at the early sun
I'll wipe away my tears and smile for you
I will be hurt cause I love you
I'll endure your humiliation each time you hit the ground
Terrifying me!
I'll stay by your side and hold you tight
I'm not saying a word
Not because I'm afraid you walk away
But cause I'm selfish
I don't wanna leave you
Cause I still love you
I am patient , blind Doesn't matter !!!
I am a ****** cause I still love you
I say I'm sorry
It's not even my fault
But remember my dear
One day you will regret cause I'm gonna leave you
One day You will be sitting alone
Watching my memory walking around
My ghost will torture you each time you touch the shadow of my shade
Because of your selfishness
It is over now
You will drink your tears and cry the pain away
and I'll be living the happiness even without you!

I didn’t lose them, they didn’t lose me,
It was simply the end.
The flower died and left behind,
Flowers to grow up on the same rhythm
They could not accept the change
As D H Lawrence once said
Nothing gold can stay
Then it came the special day
When the little kid turned into a woman
A woman carries a sword
The attractive lips start with bitter words
Like a warrior, raised the armor steal and moved forward
The sky did not cry raindrops
It was sunny celebrates the shining day
Then the winter came with tears and sad eyes
The woman ran over the hill
Raised the flag of awareness
Stabbed it in her heart
Cried to the universe the little girl
Is the hell ready for me to come?
The flower beamed to the stars
I am a Goddess
At least I won’t be lonesome

I hold your hand strongly
To feel save from this world
I hug you tightly
To feel warm and loved like never before
I feel hysterically happy,
Because I can’t believe we are together
I feel blissful and absurd
That you are near, just over here,
In my heart
I can’t think regularly
I feel nervous and overly happy
Since you are mine
I keep thinking of you
And enjoying recalling every word you say
every gest and every smile
To feel this lovely shake in my heart
To believe that this love story is real in my dreams world
what a beautiful dream I live now!
I can’t figure out what to say or to do,
When I’ll get suddenly to you
I wish you would never leave but to stay
if I can catch you but when I do,
You get far away like the wind
And I look desperately at your shadow
Beaming to my heart
Then, I sit crying in my room
Having this non-ending night
Waiting to meet you again
I think hardly how to get you closer
I hold my breath and I tremble once I see you
The romantic words from my mouth run away
Are you listening to this beautiful melody?
My heart sings once we meet
Are you watching my looks?
Once my eyes get into your charming eyes
I keep calm and walk my steps watching you walking away
I regret not telling how much I love you
How much bruises and how much pain
Am I foolish or stupid to fall for you?
It happens since we are from different worlds
Do you know? I miss you
Please Come back again!

You always take decision on what we do
You do whatever you want
You do whatever is good for you
When we fight and make up
you do it your way
You don't even ask if it is appropriate
Watch out man, I'm warning you
It might be our end
I'm fed up with the truth
You love controlling more than loving me
You want me to be your own thing
Don't you see?
You are hurting me!
You are using my innocent love
You go out leaving me alone in that prison
Why you do that? give me one reason
I want to meet the world
But you are holding me
One kiss of you
You think it does work, Oh man Driving me crazy!
You come at home late, Drunk!
Asking me to serve you as a slave
I am woman, a human being
I'm not going to ask you mercy
Not even begging you
Killing me would be releasing me!

Dreaming is flying faraway
visiting the highest sky
wandering in the clouds
feeling the extreme happiness and a spiritual bliss of mother nature and universe...
You trust it all
You believe in it and once you get there
You fall down
you fall on the ground..the immortality!
where there is no one to catch you or even to warn!
You meet the reality...you meet them all
you are so alone!
you meet all the depressed souls
you meet smirk ghosts
you lie to your heart
killing all hopes that you can touch a star, you can touch the moon!
they say oh lord...dear God
I say my mom is all what I believe in..
Mother is my lord, my savior and my hero.
....

Hurt
She was always hurt. She was always the one to blame. She was alone
She could not bear the way they treated her by.
She was walking in that crowded place, seeing lights melting with tears
Hearing loud laughs and remembering the pain
She was crying flood of tears
Suddenly she couldn’t feel the world
Walked as a ghost in the crowdie road
Cars were coming too fast; they hit her body and set free her desperate soul
She stood still in the middle of the traffic jam
Her beautiful sad eyes could tell the story of her gloom
She was hurt till she couldn’t take a stand anymore
To end her life, would be the perfect thing she hoped
She opened her eyes and saw the light shining up
Angles were holding her gently, taking her to a heavenly place
It hurts
it hurts when you walk alone in a crowded place
Seeing lovers pass by, glance at them, move on and smile
It hurts, the fact that she was beaming to the destiny
A destiny betrayed her, promised her of happiness,
He ran away!
It hurts when she was walking into the hallway
Hearing laugher of ghosts and banshees making fun of her soul
It hurts because she was an innocent dreamer
The devil pushed her into the real world
Smile a second and weep million years
The joy for her comes a moment and forever disappears
It took too long, to bury her bones in the ground
Where she finally could easily take a breathe
Feel nothing but a complete strong relief
It hurts she could endure all the dreadful words
The fake smiles, delusional promises and realistic ghosts
She was always a cute oppressed
Lonely and depressed but pure
She was never strong but weak
Like a flower grows lonely on the deserted high hill
Hidden its beauty under the cover of a bad girl
“Don’t judge people, don’t look at their clothes or smiles and start to assume! There are always many hidden things, under their manifest personalities; there are hidden souls. I am lucky to have the opportunity to see it. I have a sense that makes me see what others can never see. Why I am always nice to people even if they hurt me? Simply because I see the good in them and I do not see the bad, since I always gaze at their eyes, I believe eyes are the center of a human being not his heart or even his crazy mind. Eyes can tell me what he/she is putting out of sight ”

Madness your depart leads me to
The light in my life left me again
My life now is gloomy and blue
Look what did your love bring me to
How can I heal this pain?
How can I deal with lover again?
I am hurt
don’t you see?
You must be blind not to feel my miserable tears
Are you finally happy?
Wasn’t I important for you to care?
Huh?!!
Was I a game? It should have got old?!
Here I am dancing for the moon
You will come back
And ask for my arms
They will simply reject
And the heart you broke
Will deeply smile for death
My feelings toward are anger and hatred
The flames of love
It is becoming cold
I am asking god to make it disappear
You will hug me and I won’t beam
I’ll get away of you
Kiss you goodbye
And in a foggy day I will disappear
I won’t be missing you
I will be over the world
Over you and over this heart ache

Let's meet again
In a different time, in a different place
Let's fall in love over again properly
In a gentle way so you won't hurt me
Let's meet again and live~~

Everytime I see you, my heart beats strongly so I feel dizzy.
Everytime I meet you, I wish I had the strenght to tell you.
Everytime you walk away, my heart keeps bleeding softly.
My heart hurts, Can't you see my tears?
Everytime I think of how far are you, my mind goes crazy, making me look like a fool.
Everytime I get closer to you, I hold my breathe so you won't know.
That stupid love is like a fire beheld inside of my soul
Days and nights?! How much love I should give for you to know.
I see you in my dreams, I see you in my nightmare
I wish you hold my hand and save me please!
I cry alot so you can feel at least once!
Every night, I hold a kinfe and try to **** my heart.
I can't help thinking of you every single time
My heart hurts and my mind is blown up
Be merciful and give me one only gentle kiss
Hold my hands, hold them tight and hug me for a lifetime
Being next to you, it's really hard
But being without you is hardest thousand-time
Why? Why are we so close and our hearts seem to be in different parts?
I hope one day you'll see!
I hope your heart would feel and mine will mend
Cause the pain this love caused to me is harsh
It hurts and it seems to be a desperate love.. desperate love!

I wake up to realize that it was only a dream, a nightmare, an forgettable memory… Its strength reduces as long as a minute increases and it’s all gone too early.
  I open my eyes to realize that I am just all right, all by myself on two sides bed…getting over you, I think I am just fine without you. Still smell your sweet sent on my pillow, I won’t wipe it away, I’ll wash as long as it getting disgusting~  
I took a step to the bathroom, while I was brushing my teeth I encountered your teeth-brush which you forgot to take with you last time you were here…I took it and threw it into the garbage... I insist it is too late! And It is completely over, why would I be that stupid to live on your things and memory?!
I put some make up on and dress up to be ready for a funny day, I put that perfume you liked  and once you smell it you will be randomly thinking of me… I know you hate perfumes, and you like it the fact I don’t use them, anyways Love and kiss!
Once I get myself into the district, I smile to the breeze; I hug the air, which carries the odor of spring flowers… Hey! What a lovely day, still I can’t see you…
I check my watch and then look up at the shinning sun, feel the gentle rays tickling my face, I love the blue sky; it inspires me to draw…. Do you miss me because I don’t…not anymore^^
I enter to a café and make out with the first warm gentle coffee cup my lips met, I gaze at the street and smile to every gentleman passed me by. Do you get jealous now? You don’t have too, I am not yours and I never was ;)
Oh you hear this melody, this song, oh yeah! Our favorite song, I still enjoy it! Do you? I guess I’ve written its lyrics on your wall! Oh and I am sorry my memories and my last signs, perfume your entire flat… Each place in this city has a series of our story, each place symbolizes you and I, so do you think we are meant to be together after all? huh I don’t think so…not anymore.
I guess if you break a promise, you are not brave enough to defend this love! So I let it all, I give up… I give up on someone I thought I’m in love with, however, I was in his love alone… Someone who forgets about my birthday, who is not there when I carry all world’s weight on my shoulder, someone who doesn't appreciate me being there, who don’t even share…
It is sweet how you were fighting to get me in your hands while all what you were struggling for was my ego to be down…to get me on your bed, people don’t struggle for ***, perhaps animals do!
I know now that we are done but as you tortured me, I will torture you in my dreams and my writings so you will be recalled of me anyhow ;)
Together, forever…Ops is not you, it’s me and my dreams guy! My love and my destiny, we are walking together in a flawless garden in heaven. Holding each other’s hands and kissing warm kisses thanking the nature, which was all the time beside us… Hey! Are you okay in your darken world? I am worry!
The night has come and I am here sitting on the rooftop waiting for it, a date with fate, I hold my sheet and the cup of coffee you gave me once… I beam to the stars we used to count and the moon I hated because of you… remember those pretty nights? I cried for your depart but I realized that you are not my soul mate. We were just a piece of our memories, filling gaps of time! :/  
I finished… To be continued ^^

"Mother"
Mother of love.
Mamma!
I love you
I’m sorrowful
I hurt you
Mamma
Stay by my side
Give me your *****
Give me your hands
I want to be held by your foundation
I need to cry on your shoulder
Mamma
Don’t leave, please stay
I want to hear your words
Whispers in silence
Touch me wild
You are the only true love I had
The only one who cares for me
I miss you
Take me with you
Never let me away
I deserve a mother love
I worth to see you around
Anytime I weep my tears
Looking at you will melt those sorrows away
Every time I come with a certificate
And announce my success
Share with you my top moments
And hide behind you
When my eyes shows the fear
Laid my head on your knees
To be told a fairytale
Mother No one can take your place
In My heart either in Paradise
I love you
You are not a memory to remember
You will always stay in my mind
And stuck in my brain
from the anthology: Bad-Dream

I want to live with the nature.
Oh... Only Nature.
I want to leave far away, leave this place for good! Move to another area where I can find my lost soul.
I want to discover my destiny which I can't behold.
I want to be alone so no one can disturb my priorities.
So I can feel relax and I can breathe in the Noisy silence.
Raise my hand to none and get the rest I want.
I want to feel no feeling but -sadppy-.
I want to find no love and feel no sympathy .
To look at the darking sky and bethink in the beautiful moon,
Watch the powerful light of the magical stars.
Breathe the pure Oxygen, the plants on earth offer me.
Touch the golden sand with my bared feet.
Look at the natural beauty of this hurt planet and pray to no Lord.
Because I'm the only Godess
Remember no memories but the story of The love I dreamed to fall in,
The illusional devotion my soft, innocent imagination bleeds in paper ever night.
Wait for no one!
Dream of nothing.
Only Imagine to a beautiful end.

When I talk about you
I smile like a child
My world becomes crazy and amusingly full of joy
I sit alone to think and all what comes on my mind
Series of picture of the lucky you
I beam gently but I feel the pretty pain in my chest
I feel my heart beats asking for the help
Because when I realize you are not next to me
I cry like a fool
A little kid looking for the favorite toy
I have many sleepless nights
Wondering what are you doing now and do you think of me back?
Once I see you
I feel I’m gonna fall down
I get dizzy and my head spins around
My knees are weak to hold me again
Only one touch of you can give the strength
However, what I do really ask is
You to love me back
I know it’s hard for me to speak out
I know it’s hard for me to express how and why
I know that what I really know is I love you unconditionally
My heart is hurting me
My soul is asking me to stop
How many days will take me to make you understand?
To make you love you I am afraid you won’t
I am afraid I’ll fail to show you that I am honest
But I love you, I didn’t ask too much but to care
Don’t act cold!
Don’t run away, listen to your feelings and give me your hand
I will promise you that I’ll never leave away
I’ll stand by you no matter what
I’ll be the most happy innocent girl
I’ll make you smile in your saddest moment
I’ll turn your blue world to a bright one
Just one moment in time, surrender to love

No matter what was the game we played
It was a beautiful one, magical somehow
No matter what you intentions were,
You still somewhere in my mind
But you will stay far way from my heart.
I see love every where, but in this circle where we are
Standing together but apart
Holding hands, dancing on a song
A song reflects the pain which tears my heart
..... Not yet...

I built a wall to separate us
I built a wall hard to be climbed
A wall of sorrows and regrets
there is a missing part
I feel that the half of my soul is missing
But I feel too complete
Can you answer my heart
wipe away my tears
and hug me silently
Or we can back in time
I would delete all your memories
By then I will feel relieve but I'll never forget
Forget the cold way you treat me with
The sadness my soul used to feel
All the pain in my chest
All the hurts in my heart
That broken mirror I used to gather
Pieces and Pieces
My hands burnt
Blood everywhere, salt and tears
Why you are being so cold to me?
What am I supposed to be?
A creature without feelings, emotions or memories
I feel I am cursed back to the day we met
Now, it is too late, the magic disappeared
And here I am left with pictures, fake smile and blue days
Where are you? the you I used to fall in love with
Are you running back to me?
Are you thinking of me too?
Or I am merely a lost memory?!

When my fire meets my coldness,
My reality meets my dreams.
Two strong sides
Two strong parts against the world
One wants to be upset
and the Other wants to be left alone.
Can you face the change?
Weakness and strength
are begging my soul to stay alive
So they can dance
So they can dance under the moon
One cries and the other smiles
Both of them feel this horrible pain
I take a piece of glass
I look depply to my hand,
I think I am about to suicide
Wait!
He shows up
Carrying emotional moves
I Hope He is the guy I am looking for
I hope he is Hope!
I almost forget what happened before
Destiny ***** my body
And the other stole my dreams, my innocence
And threw me away to the real world
The Miss came to save me
However, I lost my heart to keep her warm
Once she gets cold, she would walk away.
And my world would chaos!
So please
I am begging you
Please don't hurt me
Dont make me bleed again
If you walk away
It will be better than break my heart
I swear this time
I won't come back to reality again

We call it ***


Drinking a bottle of whisky
Smoking a block of cigarettes
Having *** with a gorilla
It would not be a story of Romeo and Juliette

The sun hides in front of darkness
Conscious mind hides against desires
From the light of life into the night’s blackness
A woman stripping for you, setting you on fires

Angles sing to mercy
Devils dance to dirtiness
Seducing the holly Lord
Running away from the cattle’s emptiness

Holding faith and forgetting about fear
Shyness, disappear!
Hotness is the guest
The beauty of love wasn’t so much dear

The taste of her cherry lips
The unconsciousness kiss
Red lips, smooth hair
Seducing eyes call for ***

The hot skinny body is weak to be hold
**** robe, tulle the hottie wears
Short, transparent the signs of temperature you feel
The perfect feminine in her is so clear

Those naked attractive shoulders
Need masculine arms to be touch with
Soft skin ask for squeezes and beats
The female small slender hands
Order the eye to blink sexually the eyelid

Looms for a moment of infinite romance to happen
Death got what a man is looking for
Body with attractive waves
A nature appeal coming after you , cheapen!

The red in her asking for eternity
Begging heaven to make love with hell
A night with voices of resistance and anger
Hard not to obey this animal action immortality

Hard to stop in a kiss of gentle love
Moments take you to the nightly moon
Savagery ends up at the morning sun
Feelings of legendary reach out to the highest point
Ouch! A monster inside of you trying to hit a move

These magical eyes won’t leave you on earth
It will take you on a journey to the other world
Make your body feel satisfactory
Avoiding the existence of the heart
And killing what is called the mind contradictory!

We met.
Two lost souls
In the same side of the river
I looked to the reflection of the water
I saw the blue sky
The white clouds
And my pretty face on the truthful mirror...
Then I saw your face
Oh...how pure was that skin
Your blue eyes
An angel fell from the highest sky?!
Oh I'm in love with you
Not because you were sophistically beautiful or imagenary true.
It was the charmness of your brighten eyes
The hidden hurt you behold
I was chosen to carry it away
A mission from the lord
to make you feel delighted again