I wake up to realize that it was only a dream, a nightmare, an forgettable memory… Its strength reduces as long as a minute increases and it’s all gone too early.
I open my eyes to realize that I am just all right, all by myself on two sides bed…getting over you, I think I am just fine without you. Still smell your sweet sent on my pillow, I won’t wipe it away, I’ll wash as long as it getting disgusting~
I took a step to the bathroom, while I was brushing my teeth I encountered your teeth-brush which you forgot to take with you last time you were here…I took it and threw it into the garbage... I insist it is too late! And It is completely over, why would I be that stupid to live on your things and memory?!
I put some make up on and dress up to be ready for a funny day, I put that perfume you liked and once you smell it you will be randomly thinking of me… I know you hate perfumes, and you like it the fact I don’t use them, anyways Love and kiss!
Once I get myself into the district, I smile to the breeze; I hug the air, which carries the odor of spring flowers… Hey! What a lovely day, still I can’t see you…
I check my watch and then look up at the shinning sun, feel the gentle rays tickling my face, I love the blue sky; it inspires me to draw…. Do you miss me because I don’t…not anymore^^
I enter to a café and make out with the first warm gentle coffee cup my lips met, I gaze at the street and smile to every gentleman passed me by. Do you get jealous now? You don’t have too, I am not yours and I never was ;)
Oh you hear this melody, this song, oh yeah! Our favorite song, I still enjoy it! Do you? I guess I’ve written its lyrics on your wall! Oh and I am sorry my memories and my last signs, perfume your entire flat… Each place in this city has a series of our story, each place symbolizes you and I, so do you think we are meant to be together after all? huh I don’t think so…not anymore.
I guess if you break a promise, you are not brave enough to defend this love! So I let it all, I give up… I give up on someone I thought I’m in love with, however, I was in his love alone… Someone who forgets about my birthday, who is not there when I carry all world’s weight on my shoulder, someone who doesn't appreciate me being there, who don’t even share…
It is sweet how you were fighting to get me in your hands while all what you were struggling for was my ego to be down…to get me on your bed, people don’t struggle for ***, perhaps animals do!
I know now that we are done but as you tortured me, I will torture you in my dreams and my writings so you will be recalled of me anyhow ;)
Together, forever…Ops is not you, it’s me and my dreams guy! My love and my destiny, we are walking together in a flawless garden in heaven. Holding each other’s hands and kissing warm kisses thanking the nature, which was all the time beside us… Hey! Are you okay in your darken world? I am worry!
The night has come and I am here sitting on the rooftop waiting for it, a date with fate, I hold my sheet and the cup of coffee you gave me once… I beam to the stars we used to count and the moon I hated because of you… remember those pretty nights? I cried for your depart but I realized that you are not my soul mate. We were just a piece of our memories, filling gaps of time! :/
I finished… To be continued ^^