punch a wall
once
twice

till all of my bones
break till
my knuckles bleed
and then

one last punch that's when
my pain
has been enough
that is what

i do
for some reason
sometimes

i wish i could say
openly
one thing it's

i can't stand your
wondrous smile
and the look
you *****

the innocent look
you hurt me
so much with that
******* look

it's one of the reasons why i love you

when you bit my lip
smiled
and walked away

the bitter taste of
the cigarette that
wasn't you

your kisses
and your quick breath
the smoothness of
your skin

your body
against mine
on the dusty road

i remember

the blackness