What is the point in love~
What is the point in feeling~
When every emotion is temporary
And every thing is consistently shifting

Once we feel it
Then its gone
Back to been all alone

So what is the point
In pursuing in interest
When its gone in a minute
Treasureing in something
That is so easy to replace

I'd rather be permanently out of place
❂

Commonly known
A public favourite
Seen in Snow White
Cherry red
Creamy white
A tasty treat
An addictive snack
Defeats your appetite

why do                   I love?
when all it ever           did turned
into hurt, pain and       heartbreak
for my soul to         break in half
then I have to   mend to back
I love and it   never returns
for i wear  my heart
on a  sleave
every
time

A guilty pleasure one enjoys
Even though its appalling
Constantly falling
Into a dark cycle
Always resuming
We keep on concluding
Ways to stop your wrongdoings
Failing to be heeded
Feeling unneeded
This constant warring
Is worrying
It unacceptable and regrettable
Why do you keep on doing this
Its apprehendable
Oh yeah
You do this
Because you enjoy this
Savour every moment
Were you get all the attention
From all this regression
The spot light is your addiction
Cry out every tear
For aid of your "depression"
Throw out inventions
For your pity party
Of your own creation
Its uninviting
Admit it
You like it
Causing trouble left and right
Leaving us deciding and
Providing guidance
For your own defiance
Admit your guilty liking
To see your friends dying
Cut by your lies
Infected by your consequences
Damaged by your actions
But you find it delighting
To see your castle crumbling
Life dividing
Embrace envy
Deny irony
Flee reality
You like causing problems
Because of the sympathy
You receive
Just admit it
Your not fooling anyone
Only your self
Cause problems
Never solve them
Such a
~Guilty Pleasure~

Why do you push me away?**

Because you hurt me
I have been bleeding for a long time
So i put a bandage over it
To stop the mosquitos drinking it

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Hurt me again
I'll stab you with a spoon

Following strife
Bubbling desire
Revengeful ruse
Sneer smirks
Contained rage
Crumbling cities
Unfolded by
Mischievous hands

Have to be perfect
to remain respected
contain role model act
to keep things intact
to the extent
depression sweeps u off your feet

Pressure overwhelming
expectations increasing
connections leaving
Self-esteem decreasing
tears overflowing

Surrounded by strict boundaries
Restricted by bitter rules
Left to feel like a reject

Must maintain vigilance
while brothers & sisters proceed to be ridiculous
Friends act villainous
required to be pure
but everyone else is full of
w i c k e d n e s s

Perfection is an obsession
&
Creates so much tension
For all the ones given this expectation

There it is
the morning sickness
After last nights wickedness

Liquor still burning in my lungs
the bounding in my head
mixture of drinks in my stomach
until I upchuck it

Foggy memories, flashbacks
guilt of words said
affair of fake love shared
temporary high dread

The poems read leaves
Voices listened
Faces imagined
Words spoken
A story awoken
From the description visioned

Feelings expressed
Truth released
People discovered
Thoughts recovered
Experiences rencountered
Venting posted
Poets noticed

Red
Its dynamic and passionate
Love and hate
Blood and courage
Aggressive and romantic
Strife and success
danger, anger and rage
The element of fire
Symbolises luck
Direction of south
Sign of ares
Physically hot and active
And spiritually persevere
Rubies, roses and wine
All seen within
The intense colour
That lies beneath the skin

Orange
Its warmth and harvest
Strength and energy
Balance and security
Abundance and stimulating
Enthusiasm, optimism, sociable and fun
An element of fire
A symbol of happiness
Sign of leo
Physically hot and move
Spiritually purity
The fruit, the vegetable
Dawn and dusk
Sunset and sunrise
Its there in the sun
The light in our lives

Yellow
Its freshness and happiness
Positivity, clarity and energy
Enlightenment and remembrance
Intellect and honour
Loyalty and joy
Cowardice and deceit
Element of air
Represents envy
Sign of Gemini
Physically cool and move
Spiritually wisdom
Yellow colour of jello
Simson fellows
Rare yellow marshmallows
Sparks of volcanoes
The mind stone

Green
Its life and renewal
The colour of nature
Means of growth
Harmony, fertility and environment
Money, ambition and greed
Stands for independence
Element of earth
Direction of north
Sign virgo
Physically balancing
Spiritual compassion
Emotionally reflective
Sea-green, sea-grass
Trees and leaves
Greeds and thieves
Caterpillars and snakes
The Slytherin House

Blue
The sky and sea
Depth and stability
Faith, truth and heaven
Represents trust, security and authority
Sadness, depression and loneliness
Soothing and peaceful
The safest colour
Element of water
Direction of west
Sign of Aquarius
Physically healing
Spiritually steadfast
Emotional confidence
Above, below
Depth and surface
Despair and hope
Mind and soul
Its all connected
Within our every bones

Indigo
Its honour and devotion
Spiritual wisdom
Mysterious and tradition
Integrity and idealistic
Intuition and realization
Psychism and visions
Element is darkness
Planets of Saturn and Neptune
Sign is Capricorn and Pisces
Wild indigo
Blueberries and dark leggings
Teacups and butterflys
Mysterious dragons
The midnight sky
A beautiful sapphire
That lies in the sky

Violet
Luxury and nobility
Complex and observant
Artistically talented
Creative and unique
We're all the same underneath
Power, royalty and magic
Truth and peace
Introversion and gloominess
Containment and femininity
Planets are Uranus and moon
Sign is Aquarius and Cancer
Represents thunder
Pansies and gum
Orchids and glum
Hats and scarfs
Your favourite bra
Zappos and Parma violets
Its in incredibles

Instead of plastering my face with labels to understand me
peel them off and actually get to know me.

4 Demons
4 Memories
4 Experiences
4 People

We meet in our lives

The First Demon
You wish you never meet
Brags and Bribes
And full of deceit
A cocky attribute
For a precious snowflake
A shameful display if only they noticed
Protective of friends, yet hurts yours
Dishes it out but can't take it back
Hates to lose
Yet hates who they are
Always disagrees but dislikes been disagreed with
Go against their beliefs they're call you a terrorist
The biggest hypocrite you'll ever met

The second demon
Is a sheep
Doesn't fellow the flock
Follows the wolf
To get a meal
Has no spine
Always tells lies
Talks to the shadows behind your back
Follows behind
Lives in pity
To feel pretty
Said sees feeling sad
'My life is so bad'
Cause of work
Cause of friends
Cause of parents
Cause of school
But painted herself blue
No innocent cupcake
Not your friend
Play with your emotions
Until you feel bad

The third demon
Is not easily seen
Plays the victim card
Each and every time
Dependent on everyone
So you feel like a parent
Stresses you out
So your hair turns grey
Known as a heartbreaker, a cheater
Plays hopscotch all day
Starts drama with your friends
Say they don't mean too
A continuous circle they play
Which leaves in you tears every single day

The fourth demon
Is no better than the rest
Picks a fight with anyone
To prove they're the best
Tries to play tough
But really plays shallow
Lives in their own bubble
Can't stay out of trouble
Like a jigsaw puzzle
Never suttle
Forms a hierarchy in every group
And place themselves at the top
Never puts in any effort
You know who they are
They stand above the rest

If you didn't want the truth to come out,
then why lie in the first place

I miss you old friend
Who i thought our friendship
would last till the end

For I was mislead
Believed in someone
who would pretend
to be my best friend

For they would forever condescend
until the bitter end
And there I was left to defriend
my dear old friend

In order to let my mind unbend
From this pressure and torture
I was left to contend

As I reflect on our childhood
And the time we would spend
I would comprehend if the past
was ever genuine or just pretend

Mind & Soul
Forever a daze
Never clear
Never consits
Never flows

Don't bother
with the subject
Forever confuse u
Lose your mental
Make you ******

Don't annoy Psyche
shes busy with her feud
with Aphrodite

Drowning in exceptions
from those who expect
perfection

Relayed upon
to be the best
finish every request

Ones who cause trouble
unnoticed
You
unacceptable

One mistake
disappointment
One flaw
burden
One weakness
defeated

The questions haunt you
You can't behave this way?
Don't be like them?
Why can't you do better?
Funny its not like you
did any better

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A decision divides my mind
To reconnect with the past
or
Leave it behind

A ghost of childhood follows me
Missing me
Trying to talk to me

Mind goes auto
In finding a approach
That doesn’t derail
I fail
To understand why
I need to reconnect
With the this devil

Don’t burn your bridges

Mind goes mental
The pain is not worth
Been friends with the devil
Yet the guilt is so difficult to
Swallow

Should I restart this cycle
Of games and drama
Or
Believe in redemption

Guess my loyalty to the closet
Really is atrocious

An open field
Shielded with an abundance of green grass
Rich and vibrant

Filled with yellow daisies
Golden sunflowers
Orange tiger lilies
Luscious lavender

Mothers and their young
Grace among the rest
As the birds and bees fest

Trees stand proud and true
As the daffodils bloom
The sky is consumed
By the stars further than we persume

Forever we've been foretold
that
Since we're teens
So we must be naive
But people don't see
The pure young ones
Unseen amongst their generation

They stand alone
Surrounded by snotty little queens
In their tight-*** jeans
Glued to their phones
Pitifully whine about their first world problems

They walk amongst the swarm
Full of Stereotypes,
stupid Instagram likes
Dumb attitudes and memes
Silly trends and overrated feelings
All subconsciously scream
Where are the people like me!

For we are good children
Forever condemned clean
Respect our teachers
Use our manners
Follows simple rules to make us look better
But that behaviour is not saluted
So we get excluded
And blended into the lockers

For in the playground it is ruled
Popularity and praise is given
To those who act like a drama queen
To cake faced girls
Who put out all the time
Then point at their boyfriends stating his the problem
To the boys with horrendous hairstyles
Who do stupid **** outside of school
Shirts untucked
neckties loosened
Lipstick and miniskirts
Heads crammed with
Anxiety and insecurities

For forever it's been foretold
The crazy thrive
The gracious discarded

Waking up at the break of dawn
Blood and Ash replace the floor

Forced to hunt
Forced to survive

Forced to track down kids my age
Vision clouded with blood and gore
Feel it swim in my boats as I search for more
I see the hozion
I search for my friends
But I don't know where they are
I don't know where anyone is
For I am alone in The Hunger Games
Stuck in this witless war
For I fight for my everything friends and family
Only to lose my identity
Replaced with a gun and army uniform

For this is the way of war

❃

You don't be perfect
for yourself
You be perfect
for others
So they never have to
worry about you
or
See the dark side
of you