Mother Earth she lives within me
Tantalizing I feel her breathing
Fires in the lungs of steel
She will take so I can heal

Stormy waves I cry for help
Drowning in a sea of doubt
Mother, I cannot make it through
“But my child, I chose you.”

Bittersweet and lemon treats
Tanking troubled hatless heaps  
Salty horizon flogs sweet beach
Sandy skin, too soft a peach
Your thumb brushing my left cheek
Can you still smell the apple’s reek
Skewed hearts remain in heat  
Devine reminds a heart to beat
Kept up in the saddles seat
King of every bit of hate, wash
These battered palms disgrace
Love has sunk the ship of face
Tulips lack the need for space
Whips of stars appear in plight
Have you only fight or flight?
Good wills only break the bank
And I’ve only left myself to thank

You smell like rain
In you love is born again
Only fiercer this time
Deeper and faster I fall
You are a fortress
And I am a stall

A sweet musty rain
Yet my heart still feels
A bit of strain
The higher I get
The quicker I think
When will you finally
Just let me sink

when you walk to the beach
All my favorite things
You feel like home
And taste like dreams
But I'm filled with fear
Could it be our end is near

On that wooden walkway
You have my heart
Take all my love
Every last part
My soul yearns yours
Connected at best
Feel it in my burning chest
Fuel my fire and reach
My desires, I've forgotten
How Amazing this could be

you pass those green plants  
Your love, a breath of fresh air
But only after drowning
Do I find it unfair you
Filled my world with despair
But I can't turn away because
For now you smell like rain
A sweet musty rain
when you walk to the beach
On that wooden pathway
You pass those green plants

I lost my heart, to love
I lost my mind, to love
I lost my faith, to love
I lost my hope, to love
I lost my passion, to love
I lost my happiness, to love
I lost my words, to love
I lost my hunger, to love
I lost my wonder, to love
I lost my body, to love
I lost my control, to love
I lost my motivation, to love
I lost my brain, to love
I lost my myself, to love
I lost my life, to love
I lost it all, to love
I lost it all *for you

The most dangerous place is inside your own head.

I'm fading away,
but you'll never see past my
camouflage smile.

oh, what on
Earth did
I just
do
?

Hello poetry
a home for my aching soul
goodbye cowardice

I never thought the words
I'm sorry
could hurt so much until I said
*I love you

Although it pains me
you've sure given me something
great to write about

Beware of the wolves,
my dear. They're back in my mind,
clawing through my thoughts

Alas, the dreaded winter wind
stale and bitter to the taste
she blew in disposition
her breath dispersed in white
as the key of G rang through
unappealing at the onset
winter's song commenced
spirits begins to perish
enveloped in her frost
howling out in utter agony
our crisp, frigid hearts
yearning to be thawed only
at the palm of spring's sweet song
winter's envy hastily erupts
wrapping the world in her arctic grasp
the song of winter will prevail

Here’s a story for you, dear
About a girl who had no ears
Could not hear of the world’s fears
Here’s a story for you, dear
About a boy’s vision so unclear
He could not see his mother’s tears
Here’s a story for you, dear
About a dad who loved his beer
Too drunk to know the end was near
Here's a story for you, dear
About a man who worked cashier
With wish to be an engeneer
Here’s a story for you, dear
About a helpful volunteer
Who most times was insincere
Here’s a story for you, dear
About a woman’s failed pap smear
Preparing for a condition so severe
Here’s a story for you, dear
Although we try to persevere
*We all want to disappear

"It's time for quite,
  It's time for peace,
  It's time for calm,
  Now go to sleep"
                                                    *I'm sorry but
                                                    Those words
                                                    Have lost all
                                                    Meaning to me

I lie awake at night
Wondering what could be
Terror of the great unknown
Without you is there still me
Tossing back and forth
An everlasting restless
What if I can never sleep
                                                                 Is this how crazy feels
I can sense the anxiety
Rippling from within
Control has lost its meaning
My heart rate escalates
Blurred vision and shaking
Are all I know that’s true
Dizziness then takes over
As my head pounds in tune
Laying here drunk with fear
As my world fades away
I am frozen in place
Am I breathing
Am I living
Is this *real

I know you might be reading this
And I guess I hope thats true
Most likely you could care less
Don’t worry, I don’t blame you
My writing is quite rough, but
If by chance your eyes grace by
I would like you to know why

I love you to the moon and back
But that’s not quite enough
I love you to the end of earth
But still that isn’t all
I love your sweet perfection
But it’s your flaws that drive me wild

Through and through I love you
Skin and bones and all
Up and down, left and right
But each direction can’t fulfill
The words I can't get out

Just know that I am sorry
For all that I have done and
You’ll probably never read this
Or even get this far
Like I said, my poetry
Isn’t for the weakened heart

But in case you ever do
Today, tomorrow, or ten years
If you and I aren’t meant to be
Just know I’ll always hope
You find some who loves you
Even more than I could cope

What if it cost money to say,
                                                 "I love you"
Would you have said it
                                                      So soon?
Would you have said it
                                                     So often?
Would you have said it
                                                          At all?

Bless your sister of the light
As she braves on through the night
Her cousin darkness loves to smite
May she always have great might
And her cousin see the bright
Where there is none to fright
Sister, take us to your height

Lost in a forest of my thoughts
I find a shadowed figure
A silhouette I follow through the moss
Fear and wonder makes me linger
His cloak removed I look across
At eyes displayed as mirrors
I see myself within their future

We wander through the forest deep
I give myself to him
Trust thy with my heart to keep
In his love I will forever swim
Never before had I let myself leap
Into his love I had gone on a whim
But the fear, just yet to reek

We return to where our love was grown
Again he is covered in a cloak of silver
There he removes and what was shown
Were now eyes that made me shiver
Owned by someone I had never know
Goodbye he said with a hushed whisper
And I faded into my thoughts alone

Have you ever felt empty
Have you ever felt numb
Have you ever felt blurry
Have you ever felt dumb

                                                         ­                    Have you ever  felt broken
                                                        ­                     Have you ever felt betrayed
                                                      ­                       Have you ever felt barren
                                                        ­                     Have you ever felt decayed

Have you ever felt anxious
Have you ever felt vacant
Have you ever felt darkness
Have you ever felt dormant

                                                      ­                       Have you ever felt shallow
                                                       ­                      Have you ever felt bleary
                                                        ­                     Have you ever felt hollow
                                                        ­                     Have you ever felt like **me

Lost was myself alone on a path. You,
Than, whistled the trees and waved with the seas
With me there along side the path, I knew
Here you would stay keeping me safe, at ease

Winters grew cold and I soon felt weary
Your presence was fading, leaving me numb
Your touch so bitter I knew quite clearly
Then you were gone at the first sign of sun

Through years on the path I wandered alone
Still hope grew quite strong in my mending heart
You would return I could feel in my bones
For once again we could have a fresh start

My dear, stay with me now. Please never go
And just love me with your immortal soul

I cannot hear you
All I hear is him
I cannot see you
All I see is him
I cannot feel you
All I feel is him
I’ll never know you
All I know is him
I cannot love you
‘Cause all I love is him
I'm plagued with his presence
The deterioration of my soul
Aching me RAW
He is the fever within me
And I cannot fathom
A world without it

A demon is lurking inside me
Scratching his way through
Aching to be set free
He’ll reveal his power
My words, actions, body
Tainted with his essence
I SCREAM out
forever ceasing to be heard
SAVE ME, SAVE ME
Save me.

Please don’t be fooled, my love
My eyes, appearing at peace
But, dear, there’s a storm inside
Save yourself from my
Ailing, infected, insanity
My specialty lies within
The incapability of being loved
Please escape while you can
For, I am eternally helpless

Lust comes knocking at my door
Your touch so inviting
As your lips awaken the
Demon raging inside me
I’m straining to free myself
But I remain helpless
I yearn for your taste
Aching for our embrace
The collision of our bodies
In a manner of nothing but
Unrighteousness
I never loved you
But the mere idea of you
Lust comes knocking at my door
I’ll let him take me tonight
As for tomorrow
Hatred, shame, disgust
I despise myself.

The only thing that
Gets her through
Is hope that you
Will come back one day
Soon she will find out
You are gone for good
And with her last breath
All hope escapes her

Your face, illuminating in front of me
My heart rate accelerating
My stomach contorting to knots
The corners of my mouth begging to rise
When I remember you are no longer mine
Desperation corrupting my thoughts
Breathing becomes a labor
The pain engulfs my whole
Failed attempts to conceal myself
For, the agony displays upon my face

I need to go away
             She says
For a while now,
So she packed her
Bags and left with
Those devilish words
Lingering in the air.