Forgetting how to speak
broken pieces of speech
does that really matter
at all, anymore?

I used to say what I though,
ask anything
I wanted to know
spend time with who I loved.

I stopped my asking,
seeing as no one
could tolerate
my questions anymore

I became isolated
in the middle of society
without sharing my questions,
my thoughts

Soon enough,
my brain started to flood
so many things
I couldn't hold

Instead of exploding,
my brain got cracked
within those cracks
my voice slipped at times

I spoke to my family,
I spoke to my friends
none of them understood
a word I said

Regardless of how I try,
the result is the same
no one understands
a single word I say.

I can speak now,
in several languages,
but none of that's useful
when nobody listens.

It's not that they don't care
they just don't get
any of what I say.



I am alone
without a voice
but no once can help me,
they don't know where to look

I'd like to go
travel the world,
seek and find people
who make sense of my words.




At times like these,
not even I
can stop myself,
Soon I might disappear

My most precious side,
what I love most about myself,
hasn't got much time
can it really be saved?

Without motivation,
without a goal and route
I am loosing my way
my brain soon might be loose

No coherent thought,
is what they all say
they just don't get
how lonely I've become.




My old, my dear friend
where has it gone
with whom I could share
all of my thoughts?

I'm seriously alone,
I need you again
please do come back
this suffering is insane.


No one to talk to
no one to ask
whatever shall I do
to this mask?

I don't even know
if who i'm looking for
is someone i could
with for a moment talk

Do they exist?
Are they alive?
Will I ever find them,
Before I die?