you were just an idol
to everyone else
they only wanted what's inside
your pants
they only admire your beautiful face
or the fame you had
they only wanted a follow from you
or any interaction
what about me?
i don't beg you
to follow me
i don't want you for
what's inside your pants
i just want you
to hug me tight
and you to whisper in my ear
that everything is going to be okay
even though it's obviously not
and i wont tell you
how much i loved you
i will tell you
how many times you had saved my life
and how many times
you've helped me to put those blades away
from my skin
just by seeing your face on the internet
and hear your angelic voice online
my darling
i don't want to have any attention
from any of your fans nor your fame
or for you
to feel sorry on me
because i
just want you to know
that someone  loves you that much
she would take a bullet for you
even though you didn't know
she existed

(Mon 23/09/13 12.05 PM)
*I present this poem to my idol who has saved my life for countless of times. One Direction

what has been heard
never been seen
it slowly fades
into the dark black mist
my eyes were blinded
with kisses and roses
that you gave me
birds was silently crying
asking for an escape
from the dark black mist
my soul slowly rot
crumbling like pastries
have never felt something so painful
neck was choked; felt like drowning
feed me with love
and kiss me with atmosphere
so i shall be saved
from the dark black mist
hands were as cold as ice
lips was as white as snow
shaking, breaking
confused, paralyzed
by its darkness
get me out, save me now
from the dark black mist


(Wed 11/09/13 11.24 AM)