I tried to fight for you five long years
Did I ever have a chance
You called me names
Put me down
Made me think it was all my fault
I was there for you through it all
But you were not for me

I never asked you for much
Nothing interested me
But a hug here
A kiss there
Hold me when I was down

Now I'm not around

You show everyone your mask

            You convinced us your happy

Playfully picking

                        laughing

                                   smiling

                                                loving

Anger falls into play

                                    You're gone

I never felt so hurt in my life

                                                You lied

Betrayal has come

               You have been unmasked

I saw you walking my way.
My heart beat faster and free.
I'm excited to say.
Your upset when you came to me.
I told you your to young I need i.d.
You smiled at me
You said your too old.
I told your never to old.
You walked out
I looked about
Your smiling at me
Are you the one
Have I won
You make me feel free

Endless falling
No words to speak
Even if I spoke
You can't hear me
For you've been lost
Far to long
Without even a song
to sing in your heart
No more tears will you
Shed for your loved ones
We're really never dead
Just lost in a state of mind
with friction that always grinds
Even you have been lost in oblivion
What is oblivion
Even I can't answer that

Lost in my dark forest of madness
Shapes and shadows form
Voices from a far untouchable place
Are they hallucinations
No it's you trying to pull me out
After all this time
Not sure if you are real
I don't want to fall
You hurt me once before
I have to try
I must run away

So many poems
So little time
All the words
In my head
Yet none come to pen
Time fading away
While you grow everyday
More poems stuck in my head

The City of Twilight

In a dark midnight hour
In a city far away
A girl stands confused
In the mist
In the fog
The lights shine like stars in the sky
She looked around to gather her bearings as she heard a hollowed shreek
Coming from something not quite real
not quite right
Something stepped out from the mist
It looked like a demonic figure straight out of hell
As if it beckoned me to prevail a message
Welcome to the city of twilight

I reach for you but your never there
I try to talk with you but nothing comes out
Try to touch you
Your not there
I have your sent all over my clothes
It's intoxicating
I miss you
My heart is breaking
Where are you now
Oh that's right
Your with her

I love the way you
Make me feel
Talk with me
Pull my chin up to look at you
Kiss me
Taste on my lips
Holding me in your arms
Hands caressing my skin
Touching my body
Love me
When I'm with you I forget about everything around me
Just you and me

I get up in morning to your text messages. Wishing you were here, or I am there.
I work work work all day.
Sending sweet nothings to you.
I love you with all this fragile heart.
I miss you every day.
I tell you what's going on in my day.
Hoping to see you come in, but you are busy too.
I get surprised with a fuzzy warm feeling when you are near.
I get depressed when you're gone.
You are always on my mind.
I want to be with you all the time.
With a simple smile.
You've stolen my heart like a thief in the night.
You blushed when I told you that you are handsome and sweet.
I see something in your eyes you have for no one else.
It makes me fall even deeper for you.
These feelings scare the heck out of me.
I thought I knew what love was until I met you.
It's not enough for me.
I can't control it.
I'm so confused,
I don't know what to do.
What should I do?

No hatred,  No hurt  

                         No fear, No love

               Nothing  

Nothing here

                Nothing  there

                                Nothing anywhere  

                                                       Not a soul

                                            Not a heart

                               Not a person in  sight

                Every step I hear no noise in
                           this vast emptiness

     Much like I feel

                           There is nothing

What I write is how I feel
It comes from deep within my soul
I have done everything within my power to make you happy
Still you never seem to be
I have found that in return you have taken my happiness thrown it away
Torn me down
Belittled me
Taken everything I am
To make yourself feel better
My only outlet is what I write
Weather
               Good
                           Bad
                                     Sad
                                              Happy
                                                            or Calm
Accept me
This is me and part of who I am

Holding hands
Lips touching
The embrace
Feather touches
Heavy breathing
The phone rings
I'm up soaking wet

I'm a piece of paper
with no importance
Just another drift
Out at sea
A sailor without
A purpose
It's all a mystery
With a glass ship
I've fought great wars
But it doesn't matter no more
Since no one looks
And See's I'll continue
On the sea in my
Ship made of glass
A message in a bottle
Is all I'll ever be