So if you’re hearing me crying
Please Don’t come trying
Cause no matter what you do
I’m already through
By the time you find me
I’ll be lying on the bed sheets
I Finally have peace in my head
Hell I was already ******* dead

The voices get louder
Looking at this caliper
And all I can think about
Is… pulling the trigger
With my *******
Watching the blood shed
Sheets stained red
This knife is my friend
We’re no longer playing pretend

Just now it seems easier
I’m done trying to please her
You said I was gonna make it
But now I just gotta face it
Im done daydreaming
I’m done ******* healing
I’ve given it my best shot
But this is my last drop
Cause what you couldn’t save
I already gave
You say it’s all in my head
And now I’m ******* dead

Another day and I'm feeling all depressed..
A couple things I had to get up off ny chest..

The girl I love how she turn into my ex
Ever since I read the text ,
Swear I'm feeling like me less
I don't even feel the same now
Drinking liquor just to bottle all this pain down
Another person said they cared but never came around
Girl you always on my mind,
Swear this love just ain't a game now..
You know that I tried for you,
Know I ain't perfect but I'll always ride for you
Going to a war girl, you know it's do Or die for you..
I put aside my pride for you.
I know I made mistakes, but in the end I never lied to you..
I told you I was honest with you..
Playing games man ,that's something I didn't gotta with you..
My feelings were so real,
Girl it's almost been an year.
But i still think of you


Swear there's so much on my mind lately..
So much I've been feeling, I can't cry lately..
So much I've been feeling like I'll die lately..

Never thought I'll ever see this part of you ..
You're the opposite of everything I ever thought of you..
I heard so many lies that I never ever thought was true..
I'm looking like a dummy girl
You know I always fought for you..
But they don't understand it..
Cause now you left my heart here and now I'm stranded..
Lost in the desert, somewhere probably where the sand is..
And then you went and vanished..
I even met your friends
Even showed you to my parents..
But I guess that was for nothing..
Still I feel we had like something.
You played your cards right girl,
I've seen you bluffing..
I've been acting like it don't faze me,
Late at night I'll be crying like a **** baby..
Staring at my **** phone, telling the Lord to save me..
But i just can't believe girl you played me..
Swear you played me..

yeah i'm feeling the damage that i can repair
going through changes but nobody cares
and i walk alone cuz you're not here
but
i want to feel your love once again
you gotta explain i will understand
but don't walk away my heart cannot
take this damage again.

One day she asked him "HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME"?
he took her to a shore of an ocean
and dropped a "tear" in the ocean and said
THE DAY ANYONE FINDS THIS TEAR, I'LL STOP LOVING YOU

what do you want to now?,
she said..

How could i say i wanted to
kiss the very source of the question?

How could i explain myself when
the seeds of doubt had penetrated in
the soil of her mind

How could have i showed the apology in
eyes without being carried away by her
cherubic innocence...

Broken into pieces
                   fallen into ash..
at the same time
                  tears running down my heart...


                  touched the door of success
                  but couldn"t open it....
at the same time
                  something seeming to end
                  before it started...


                 I can pretend to be a phoenix
                 rising from the ashes...
at the same time
                 use my tears to heal myself..


                BUT THIS **** SOUL NEVER
                LET'S ME LIE TO MYSELF