Help me,
I'm drowning.

Nobody see's me,
I'm invisible.

There was no air to breathe,
there was nobody listening,
I was all alone.

The darkness pull me down,
and the light slowly slipped away.

I didn't take a chance nor I try
because nobody could save me,

except myself.

What are we thinking about until we can't
close our eyes?
Why it's hard to just sleep rather get through
a day?
You just want to close your eyes without
having to wait for tomorrow.

Why we're wide awake during the time we dream?
Why we're asleep during the time we work?
Why has the day become the night for me and the night
become the day?

Maybe, my world isn't the earth.
Then, I'll just sleep and fly away.

Somewhere beyond the sea,
lay a no man island.
Hidden with a mystery
no man dare to reveal.

The sound of the waves
keeps on sweeping me away
from the land,
taking me to somewhere,
with no destination.

And then I know.
Somewhere beyond the sea,
there is hope,
with a hopeless dream.

I wish I can go back in time,
and take back everything I've done that has damage us.

I wish I never fell in love with you,
I wish I had listened to myself in the beginning.

I focused too much on the idea of you and me together,
I forgot that expectations never met reality.

I just let everything flow itself,
and maybe someday faith can bring us together.
Only if someday ever exist.

where should I hide
my love.

while I'm dying for
you to notice me,

you said that it
better to be kept
inside

rather ruin the beauty
of what it is now.

I met you across the subway,
we took a walk at the Central Park.
We went to a $1 pizza restaurant on our first date.
And spend the rest of our date at The Met.
We moved in together in an apartment in Tribeca.
And we go to work in Manhattan.

But one day on a sunset,
you took me to The Empire State building
and propose to me.
And we got married at the City Hall.

I'm no perfect human.
I make flaws.
But my flaws don't define who I am.

But the one thing that makes you can't love me,
is the fact I don't have the perfect body,
or the perfect beautiful face.

Should I love you?
Even that is all the reason why you can't love me?
Even I love you so badly,
it haunts me every day.

But how can I love you,
if I don't care about who I am.
But should I change for you?
I don't deserve you.
I don't deserve a person who can't
accept other flaws.
Then I can't love you.
Even if I can love you more than enough.

If we never found our way to each other,

I just want you to know that my feeling was sincere.

I could've loved you better,

but it was only in my wildest dream

that I'll ever have you love me back.

Under the night in Paris,
I dreamt.
The man that I love came to me,
giving me all the hope that I've wished,
a love from him,
from his whole heart.

The world feel worthless,
when there's no one
to understand what
you are going through.
When you needed help,
but they never listen.

should I say that I'm not doing fine?
Or should I say goodbye?

The hand that written have
become frozen.
Words have become
meaningless.
The paper is just an empty
blank space.
The love story is never
the same.

How can I say I love you,
when a poet died
and words are no more a word for love?
But instead, words have become a hurtful way
to **** somebody soul,
Like the poet.

Remind me with your whispers
that you love me.

Remin me with your touch
that you want me.

Remind me with your kiss
that you love is passionate.

Remind me with the way you look at me
that you love me for who I am.

Remind me with all your weakness
that I'll love you for who you are.

Besides your beautiful smiles,
your foolish laugh,
your silly jokes,
and all those ways you
tried to comfort me
and understand me.

From all of that,
I fell in love with your flaws.
where nobody would,
I fell in love wanting to be that person
who can be right beside you and love you
for who you are.
Not because of your beauty,
but your flaws is more beautiful to me.

I'll bear the consequences of falling in love with you.
Yet, you always make my heart flutter,
whether you sincere of your feeling,
or even it was just because you are that kind of person.

The pain will forever scar,
but the love will stays.
hoping that the consequences will turn around to you.

never it crossed my mind

that I'll ever have a feeling for you.

but yet, you crossed a line you

didn't realize.

I was in love with you

with all the time you kept saying,

"I want someone to love."

But yet you didn't realize,

there's someone in front of you

dying for you to see her heart.

just for once,
can you look at me,
and tell me if I really there?

All you can say is,
"You are here."
But I never there.
In your heart.

I brought a pen
cause I want to write
nothing important,
just my thought.
cause of this little square
journal book,
that remind me of you.
even when I hates you
I want to write it on that book
how silly is that book is.
nothing important,
you give it away to someone
who don't appreciate the truly
meaning of that silly book.

I didn't know what it felt like,
closing your eyes and wanting to be
kissed.
I didn't know what it felt like,
had someone look at you straight to your
soul.
I didn't know what it felt like,
until I met you.

Love was just a game,
love is fictional,
it never felt real,
because I only knew love from a love story,
but never know what love is.

You open up my heart,
putting my missing pieces back,
but as I learned what love is,
I realize that love was more than just an affection, more than a feeling towards two people,
but love was....

Something deep and mysterious and couldn't be explained because love is unknown,
it came out of nowhere and caught you,
once you get in it,
you stuck inside of it.
And if you left all alone,
you wish,
you never know how love
felt like.
And rather live a life without knowing
what love actually felt.

I miss you, not as a lover.
But as the guy who would ask me how I'm doing when nobody asks.
When we would talk random things for hours and argue all of a sudden.
Yet, the next day is just another day to laugh off about other things.
And I miss you that way.

This is the last words I write to you,
I say goodbye.

I'm sorry to be a bother in your thoughts.
I'm sorry for trying too hard for you.

Do I regret it?
I do. I regret falling in love with my best friend,
and broke the beautiful friendship we had before.

I miss you.
I miss the old us.

Can you come back?

It was perfect for the very first time,
living on a fairy tale,
to be kissed not to kiss,
to be loved,
to be missed,
to be special.

But what if 'to be' wasn't meant to be?
What if 'to be' was just a dream and
never was a reality?

you did nothing wrong,
it was me who loves the idea of loving you.

I keep avoiding the reality,
hoping that the idea of mine came true.
But the reality, it's far from happening.

I destroy my own soul.

Your heart was pure,
but was it real?
Was the heart you show,
ever meant to love?
If you knew it would
destroy a person who loves.

I couldn’t see you
like a piece of an abstract art
who knew?
a pure as water
and white as snow like you
are hard to be notice.
The invisibility of yours
are hard to be understand.
if you look deeper,
you are deeper than the ocean,
and darker than the cloudy sky.
If I could only close my eyes,
rather wonder what it’s like
to be loved by you.

You reminded me of a dream
that I failed to reach.

Even though I dream all the way
to the moon,
at least I fell amongst the brightest
star.

At least I didn't fall into your black hole,
that eats me alive,
and lives inside space of time,
left waiting for the unknown.

Your smile has faded away.
Your warm back has become cold.
The shadow that was beside me has disappeared.

Oh, how I miss you.

Until the days burned my soul by
the absence of you in my life.

I'm haunted by your silence answer
and the distance you kept from me.

Even when our eyes met in the crowded room,
it was just a cold stare from a stranger.
No expression, no meaning at all.

How did we become this way?

I wish I was dreaming
right now about the reality
how it hurts
how it too real to be a dream
but I want to open my eyes
and see that it never happens.
that it's only in my dream
where's my reality lives.

You are far away from my reaching.
Every day, my soul would burn in flames,
with my days only haunted with the thought of you.
But it was impossible.

I want you, I want your love.
I want the extraordinary feeling,
the lust, the laugher,
screaming and fighting, and make love.

But him came into the picture,
a real person, who love me as much as I love you.
He makes all of my imagination into reality.
He made me forgot of your existance.

As I learn slowly to love him body and soul,
your appearance start to fade.
You has evaporate from my thoughts,
and my days were only to love him

Hello, how you doing?
I haven't write back to you in a while.

I suddenly thought of you during this depressing time.
Longing for the words you written in your letter.
How it can comfort my weary heart.

But in the same time,
I'm exhausted with all of this uncertainty and the distance.
Whether I can keep letting you in or not.
Or it was just in my mind that everything is something
but actually it isnt.

You don't have to fall in love with me.
Why?
Because you the person I want to be with,
all the time.

Used me all you want,
I'm gonna fall in love with you, anyway.
Because I'm giving you my all.

You don't have to fall in love with me.
Because when the time come,
everything will be remind you of me.