Earthquake?
Another earthquake?
No,
just your body
just your heartbeat
rocking you off balance
sasae kirenu karada ga yurasarete
for what seems to be
no good reason.
False earthquakes
from my chest
when i'm supposed to be
sitting still
yuka ni suwatte
antei shiteiru
hazu na no ni
mune no naka no jishin ga
karada wo, kokoro wo,
fuan ni saseru

picking off bits of my skin
to rid myself of you
changing my shell
and making it new
scratching it raw
and bleeding it through
like a leech to ill blood
a snake shedding
a used, filthy sheath

There's something growing
In the dark in the drain
Beautiful terrible thing
Bitter and dark like I've been
Betrayed by nothing
Betrayed by unfeeling

I feel it sneaking up on me
Hanging in the air
A cold winter breath
A soul escaping
Do you want to see
What shape it's taking

There's something growing
Like the moss on your brain
I with my heavy eye
Remind myself to breathe
Don't let me me read your thoughts
I relate too dangerously

It's hard to live with people
It's hard to live alone
It's hard to bear existing
With all these things I own
There's something growing
Perhaps already grown

That isolation that you revel in  
before long becomes a burden.
Did you forget how to act
forget how to talk
forget the feel of skin?

Did you forget
you don't know how
to connect?

How long have you been living in that empty room?
Not sure why I feel like I do, but I'm certain
it has nothing to do with you;
I'm just far from you,
far from view.

I know I'm not
don't think I'm
any better or worse than you

Screen simulation
trying not to seem such a stranger
Some lonesome human
inhuman if I'm not
trying to recover the feelings I forgot

I don't want to but I think about it all the time
What he did, how he did
the ghosts of songs left behind.
I think should stop listening,
I know I really should stop listening,
but I can't drown it out.

It'll come back around
I'll come back around

Screen simulation
trying not to seem such a stranger
Some lonesome human
inhuman if I'm not
trying to recover my feelings

Screen simulation
trying not to seem such a stranger
Some lonesome human
inhuman if I'm not
trying to recover the feelings I forgot
I forgot

stay the cynic
avoid romantic
toward anything with a pulse

can't reacquaint myself with myself
without getting a little dizzy
short of breath just thinking about it
unapologetic, unashamedly

single steady heartbeat stirs the bath
shaking the surface and trembling
submerged and ******* up hot water
looks so suffocatingly appealing

in my head so much it's flooded
thought I'd sink under and float in you
but I'm trying to remind myself:
don't drown yourself in this one too

vertigo
lack of sleep
but awake
and aware

sickeningly
more than ever
eyes locked open
brain electric

only my stomach rebels
churning in nervous circles

wondered why I was awake

I thought I heard it in your voice--
caring--
plagued by distance