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Lily Gatewood Aug 2018
I would have been strong
I would have been different
I would have been loud
And I would have been smart

They were no match
They were naive
They were so sweet
And they wouldn't have been me

She was irresponsible
She was a wild girl
She was asking for it
And if I was she, that wouldn't be my story

Yet tell me why
The day you laid eyes,
I would become everything I despised

Yet tell me why I had not
been strong,
been different,
been loud,

Most importantly,
tell me why I wasn't asking for it
yet you willingly gave to me
the scars of a lifetime.
Lily Gatewood Aug 2018
My mind has a funny way of playing tricks on me.
I dream as if I’ve never lived and speak as if I’ve lived for centuries.

The nights are always the worst
Reminded of that blood-curdling scream I can’t help but let out a tear
My mind and body had yet to connect then
I wept as I cleaned the crimson floors and walls

Was it because I wasn’t pure enough?
Was it because I didn’t pray enough?
Was it because God had turned her back on me?
Who knows, surely not me

My mind is like a bathtub overflowing onto the cold tiled floor
Flooding into all the cracks I have yet to fill

As the sun shines down on my back I can’t help but wish for night
Day only brings heartache and the yearning for what I can’t reach

I guess my mind really does play tricks on me.

— The End —