Love was when you held me because I was crying.
You held me even though I belonged in someone else's arms.
You held me because he was passed out and I was alone.
You held me because you loved me.

Love was when I finally left you one last time.
I left you because you can do better than my broken heart.
I left you because someone beautiful smiled at you like I do.
I left you because I love you.

Love is when we see each other and we smile with our teeth showing.
We smile because we were good together.
We smile because if we don't we might cry.
We smile because we love each other, and that will never change.

I dont want to cry
    
   Dont want to cry

              Want to cry

                          To cry

                                Cry.

It grabs you
With long dark nails
It pins you down
Captivating.

It looks you in the eye
You see a fake present
You see past with future.

Tell not nobody
Or it will **** you
It kills you not to
Tormenting.

Your body moves in a seizure
No one notices
Tell not nobody.

You're blinded
Punctured with light and words
Words, difficult, passionate, dulling
Enrapturing.

The more anxious, the more I seizure
It grabs a hold of your heart
Never before feel losing blood
Tell not nobody.

I took my phone
And scroll through my social media
I saw you.

I saw you.

And you again.

And you.

It was all you.

Sounds familiar eh?
That was how it is when I had you
Even after you left
It was all you.

It took me tons of energy to just push you out a little
And make space for other people
But you had to be around me
And every new dreams that I built began to crumble.

No i do not want it to crumble.
I dont want you to affect me the way you do.
I am little and weak for you.

You left, and i tried to move.
And I did.
I have someone who makes me happy now
But it frustrates me how you are still around
How i always see you somehow.

You changed it all
And now i cant even call
It is a blessing
Because a distance is created
But i am disgusted
At how I am still actually hurt
By all your actions.

You will always still be there
And i will always secretly care
But i will never compare
My new, to you, the old.

Because I gotta keep moving,
since you stopped being mine to hold.