stop giving me false hope to cling onto—
there’s nothing there.
i’m tired;
i’m drained.
my love for you—once ever-present and clear—now a burden, dry and bare.

all the pleading
to let me adore you;
you could not have said once,
‘i don’t see a future beside you’?

i am in shambles
over a lover
i never had,
nor never knew.
how to love one who never loved you?
don’t.

~g.r.~

a mini-fridge for alcohol,
a rat-dog to cuddle,
a roku for watching movies,
and an april fools prank call.

there is a lot that i could say,
but i could not say it all.
i wish we could all stay,
but one is gonna go away.

my roommates are my favorite,
the ones i like to turn to.
i do not know how to manage,
because without y'all i'd be a savage.

-g.r.

i don't know
how to not talk to you,
how to not ask how your day has gone,
how to not tell you i miss you.

i don't know
how to not love you.

i don't know
how to be me without being a part of you.

- g.r.

I learned to stop counting the days since you left.

I keep pulling back
Because I know I give too much.
But I can never leave completely
Because too much of you is with me.

i’m with my friends
and you hit me up.
i get nervous.
can they hear my heart race?
if they know who it was,
i’d be *******.
can’t be a fool and fall for you,
not today,
not again.

“it isn’t right.”
”block him.”
“he’s no good.”
“you can’t wait around.”

what they don’t know
is just ‘cause you’re far away
and don’t message everyday,
doesn’t mean you didn’t care.
and i wouldn’t say you weren’t,
once upon a time,
a dream of mine.