G - Hello Poetry

G Jan 2013

It hurts to let go!
Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away.
You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, or having wanted.
For having wanted to be wanted.
It confuses you because you think that your feelings were wrong, and it makes you feel so small when you let it out and it doesn't come back.
You feel so lonely and alone
that you can't explain.
There's nothing
like
it.

G Jan 2013

For you again

I would rather you get super mad than want to get even.
I would rather be slapped in both cheeks than to stop breathing
Or even not see you for a couple weeks than to be ignored the whole season.
Or my soul be bruised from you hurting than my heart stop beating.
Please don't think there's nothing in this heart even though sometimes it may seem deceiving.
I feel like anyways
All I'm saying is your the only girl in this world I want to be pleasing.
Cause there's millions of tiny little blood cells in this giant heart that's only beating...

For you baby

G Jan 2013

Untitled

Sometimes I just want to be alone and
Never have a close relationship with anybody.
I hate seeing people lose the one they love and are close to.
And i never wanna be that person
Or never have to go through a death of someone I love.
Or someone I love have to deal with my death. It's just to much worry and to much stress.
I feel like if someone died I'd die. Or if I died id die again because of the people I left. It's just to much stress.
But it's impossible for me to not wanna love and have a close relationship.
I guess I just got to pray and hope for the best.
I'm sure god will gift me with strength to handle it and give me a shoulder.
But there's this one girl I'm in love with that if she died it's somethin I could never get over.

G Jan 2013

I ******* up

Palms covered with sweat.
Heart aching from stress.
Knowing this would be somethin I could never forget.
Knowing this was somethin I would forever regret.
Thinking to myself, she was the best thing I could ever have.
But for some odd reason I still left.
I took her name and added an ex.
I started looking for the one who was next.
Only to realize she really was the best.
For me
The most beautiful and caring girl I could ever get.
With her by my side I could never be more blessed.
So **** when she was on top of me with her loving hands on my chest.
I know I ******* up and should have never left. But at that time I just felt it was best.
For you and for us.
But now I think and know I ******* up!

G Jan 2013

You

Separation anxiety running through my every vein.
So much to lose with you yet we had
so much to gain.
The world in our fingertips,
we let it slip through our names.
Love like a blue skied sunny day,
but with rain.
Hurting from the distance between us so the
love we gave was full of pain.
you and your love was all I ever wanted
and no one could ever give the same.
Mezmorizing, Astonishing, Rare, Loving, and One.
Written all in your name.
I'd do anything for you and for things to be the same.
But I'm here again standing alone in the cold and rain
like a winter night in Michigan.
Hoping YOUR okay and still breathing feeling
no pain.

G Jan 2013

Untitled

World full of lies.
Souls full of sin.
People full of pride.
This worlds coming to an end

G Jan 2013

Untitled

It's not the fall that hurts.
It's the sudden stop
after your fall..