envy tears Because
they glide gently down
cheeks, And aren't falling
onto concrete? Do raindrops
envy tears As they come from
pure emotion And aren't
equivalent to vapor?
Which have no say
in their falling And don't
have to feel ashamed? Do
tears envy raindrops Because
they need not feel pain, Or
fear or heartbreak?
Sinabi ko na nga ba
May hindi ako alam
Malinaw na ngayon
Salamat sa paalam
Sinabi ko na nga ba
Ngayo'y intindi na
'Wag kang mag-alala
Sanay na rin naman akong umasa
huwag mo nang problemahin
Ngunit hindi ko maalis sa aking isip
ang katotohanan na ika'y umiiyak ng obra maestra,
At ako'y napupuwing lamang.
Ngunit paulit-ulit na pinapaalala sa akin ng utak ko
na ikaw ang malayang kalawakan,
At ako'y karagatan na may hangganan.
Ngunit tayo'y magkaiba ng mundo.
Tanawin mo ang mga planeta ng imahinasyon mo,
At akin naman ang bulalakaw dito sa lupa.
Natatakot ang aking puso na walang paraan
para magsama ang Hilaga't Timog.
Forgive me, my love
My numb heart beats too fast
It twisted your words into lies
It turned your intentions to motives
My foolish heart makes me doubt
And you have gotten closer
Mend it, if you please
But make it quick
My deceitful heart will fool me
Its lies will be truths
And may never be honest again
But then neither will you
So please hurry,
Save my heart from freezing
For you're turning antagonist
just in case
Ang sabi nila,
Ang bawal ay mas masarap nga!
Ba't dito ako napadpad?
Mata laging sayo lumilipad.
Ngunit walang sasabihin
Ikaw na unang pumansin sa akin.
Ako ba'y umaasa
Ikaw na nga ba ang aking tala?
Deretsyohin mo ako
Ano'ng saloobin mo?
Ng maka-move na sa damdaming ito.
Sabi mo sa akin, huwag kong sabihin na...
pati puso ko,
mo lang ako,
Ang sagot ko sayo...
Nakakapagod makitang lagi kang may kasamang iba.
Nakakapagod pakinggan ang mga kwento mo tungkol sa kanya.
Nakakapagod isipin ang history ng love life mo.
Nakakapagod tanggapin na, sa ngayon, hindi ako ang para sa iyo.
Pero salamat sa tiwala.
Salamat sa tawanan.
Salamat sa mga panahong natutuwa kang makita ako.
Salamat sa pake mo sakin.
Na kahit pa ulit-ulit na nagagasgas ng mga salita at gawa mo ang puso ko,
Binigyan mo ako ng panahong makilala ka. At malaman ang mga saloobin mo.
At oportunidad na mahalin ka kahit masakit.
Ang tunay nga na pag-ibig ay walang hinihinging kapalit.
Kaya huwag kang mag-alala,
Anumang gawin mo,
Hindi ako lalayo.
Dahil alam kong kailangan kita,
Pero deep down
Kailangan mo rin ako.
Pasensya na kung akala mo ayaw kong makipag sayaw kasama ka.
Sadyang hindi lang ako karapatdapat na ma-pares sayo.
those things we...
we think about?
we think about
those things we
Ako ba'y sinusubukan nanaman?
Tumigil na ba ang dating tumitibok?
Hindi mo kasalanan, binibigay mo na lahat
Pero ako ang maiiwang wasak,
Nasusunog at manhid; kapag
Nagtapos ang kalokohang 'to
Am I being tested again?
Has what once beat now come to a stop?
It's not your fault, you give everything
But I'm the one who will be left broken,
Burning, and numb; when
This foolishness comes to an end
I would like to say
I am not avoiding you...
Aaralin ko ang hugis ng iyong mukha,
Tatandaan ang bilog ng ilaw sa iyong mga mata.
Huhulaan ko ang tumatakbo sa iyong isipan,
Huhugot ng kahulugan sa iyong ekspresyon.
At mangangarap ng tayo sa kinabukasan,
Hahayaang madala ng imahinasyon.
*Habang may tinititigan kang iba.
When you are anonymous.
Being named is hard.
I don't know how we got into this...
'cuz you and I are nothing alike.
And down the road my answer will be no.
So let's stop this
to save ourselves from
Naiinis ako sa mga hipokrito
Na ginagawa sa iba
Ang ayaw nilang gawin sa kanila.
Naiinis ako sa mga makasarili
Na kaya kong unawain
Ngunit hind magbibigay ng oras na intindihin ako.
Naiinis ako sa kanya
Dahil nalilito ako.
Naiinis ako sa kanya
Dahil nililito ako.
Naiinis ako sayo
Kasi ayaw mo akong tigilan.
Naiinis ako sa sarili ko
Dahil ang mundo ay bilog nga
At alam kong lahat ng kinaiinisan ko
Sa akin din nagsisimula.
What is this love
That envelops me in my entirety?
The love of a perfect Savior
for a broken lamb.
*This love I so often dismiss.
This love that is not earned, but simply received.
This love that endures.
This love that forgives.
This love that persists.
Di makatulog dahil sa'yo.
Replyan mo 'ko please!
'Di ko na matiis!
Kelangan ko lang 'tong ma-release!
Gusto kita ,
Iniisip mo parin ba siya?
Pwede bang me nalang,
Effort saki'y 'di masasayang!
me nalang pls
Makikinig ba ako sa aking isip na dati pa namang magulo?
A line from one of my favorite songs.
Indak by Up Dharma Down
Kung sabihin mo sa aking hindi seryoso ang paghalik mo sa kanya,
Paano pa kaya yung mga matamis na salitang pinaparinig mo sa akin?
Sabi nga nila diba,
*actions speak louder than words.
A place that reminds me
of the softer memories buried deep,
deep inside my head.
Those indistinct blurs of pine
and nothingness once again
gain meaning as memories from
a thousand miles away,
from another land,
come rushing home.
*What the time fades,
the cold brings back.
Gusto mo ba akong samahan?
Alam kong nasasaktan ka,
oras na para lumisan.
***** tayo sa kalawakan.
Had a solid plan
You came out of nowhere; and
I'm back to square one.
My stupid phone doesn't work properly. It's old and it's slow and its battery dies a lot. The thing is, when I don't know what to do or who to talk to, and all I have to pull out is my phone, I can't play games or surf the net, because of my phone's inabilities. I need to look busy so instead I end up going back to all my message conversations. And then your name appears and I notice your group texts again and begin scrolling up and back into time and get to the point where my replies start and becomes more and more frequent. And then words start appearing that I had never said to anyone else before. And just like that I'm thrown back to that time, the butterflies and confusion. While everyone else around me is bored with Facebook. Joke's on them? No, joke's on me. My stupid phone's inabilities have a way of playing with me you see, so that boredom turns into reliving our memories. And then I don't feel like being around people with their phones out anymore.
This is what I feared would happen.
That you would prove me wrong,
And by wrong I mean right.
That all the doubts I had in the beginning,
Would make themselves come true.
That I would set my eyes on you,
And begin to see a glow.
That you would feed off of my emotions,
And make me forget for more than a second,
Black holes don't turn into stars.
But then again, what's wrong with being a black hole?
I merge clips.
I merge audio and video,
sound and pictures.
That's all I merge;
For fear of disrupting
this natural order
I have constructed.
But tonight I merged
two separate lives I owned
And to my surprise,
things turned out okay.
For once, it's nice not to feel torn.
I want to make my own money.
I want my own job.
I want my own place.
I want my own friends.
I want to be independent.
I want to meet someone special.
I want to get heartbroken.
I want to be lost.
I want to be found.
I want to learn the value of things.
I want to experience on my own.
I want to feel comfortable being sad.
I want to know God.
I want to feel free.
I want to feel happy.
I want to be loved.
I want to feel ready to return Home.
We don't belong to this world, something better awaits us.
I dreamed that things were not as they seem
That knives shone and glass did indeed gleam
I dreamed of a world of fairy tales,
Of magic, sparkle, and singing whales
I dreamed you were standing by the shore, so was I,
So were peach castles and the sound of a lullaby
I dreamed that you turned to me to say...
whisper in my ear, love on your fa--*
A sound jolts me awake, you hold a blade to my throat
And you have on your favorite mask and that coat
There is no one to hear my screams.
Next time I won't dream.
Things are not at all as they seem.
Wishing someone was different.
Because I'm scared of being engulfed in flames
And that you'll leave me burning
While I watch you
Blow out your matches,
And not do the same*
To someone else
Do not define my silence
As something of no use.
For a lamp sheds only lights;
The sun gives only life.
Do not mistake my silence
As a lack of things to say
For I'll only utter value,
Only think it over in my brain.
Do not confuse my silence
With something of no worth.
For my silence is golden
Yet capable of hurt.
Do not mistake my silence
For an I do not love you
For it means just quite the opposite
No words could relay this to you.
that take the life out of us,
that make us feel worthless,
that remind us we are imperfect,
that show people what's underneath.
the moments that let people in,
that force us to be humble,
that make us exercise trust,
that show we are vulnerable,
that give us more questions that answers;
here's to the moments that just seem to take without giving
that make us put everything on hold,
that let us take risks,
that make us rethink,
that let us be bold.
here's to the moments that make us feel alive.
Been having a lot of these moments.
Write what you feel; not
To be noticed or envied,
But to be honest.
midnight lights, subdued
rainy nights last forever,
weary eyes consumed.
I beg you, don't waste your pretty words on me.
You know who I am, but you don't know my name.
And trust me, *a name can change everything.
to a certain poet
That's what I want, darling
To be recognized,
Selfish as it may sound.
I have never fallen in love,
at least that's what I allow myself to believe.
I haven't gone mad for anyone or
done the crazy things that I should do if I were in love.
I've never had someone say they loved me.
I've never been fancied by someone I fancied.
I've thought, "He must like me"
I've been happy for weeks knowing he likes me...
I've fallen from the sky knowing how wrong I was.
I've thought he made me believe he loved me.
I'd like to believe he was playing with me,
or even playing me,
But not even that.
How could I have loved anyone then,
when there was no one to love?
No one I should have fallen for.
But why then do they say that I must
have fallen in love at some point of this life of mine?
After not allowing myself to believe I had,
I confronted myself.
Why do I see his face in the children
who merely lift their eyebrows?
Why do I always see that smile of his,
even when we never met up again?
Why do I feel pained and at the same time happy
that he is happy, with someone else?
And then I come to the realization
that I could have loved,
a long time ago
when he sat next to me.
And maybe even I did love.
For he didn't need to do
anything to receive this emotion.
His being was all he needed
for my inexperienced heart to turn towards him,
and not be his... but definitely turn towards him.
And with his ignorance,
or maybe not-so-ignorant self
He scarred my heart with his indifference.
Yet not a scar of hate or heartbreak--
but one of remembrance that won't leave.
So did I ever love?
I really don't know.
Something I wrote in high school about a boy who remains dear to me.
Why do we want the things that we can't have?
Am I only equivalent to my words?
If this is the case, then you define me, as I am only memories
You could remember every line I said last year,
But not recall my words from a minute ago.
Accept me for my wholeness.
Will you judge me for how I feel?
Don't worry, I will realize I am wrong
But for now I am right.
All is ask is that you don't dismiss me.
Accept me for my wholeness.
Let me show you colors.
Let me show you lights in the darkness of night.
I want you to see the vibrant reflections of water drops on glass,
The people whizzing by in blurs.
Lend me your ears.
I want you to hear the sounds of the streets.
The buzzes and beeps of a world far from sleep
Though the moon sits in simple silence.
Give me your hands.
I will guide you through the dark.
Past the brilliance of the the things you see,
And the resounding noise of the things you hear.
'Till you fear them no more.
inspired by my commutes home at night
Get me out of this hole,
That I so willing dug for myself
And make deeper everyday.
So this is what it feels like.
You have introduced
it to me in no way
I have never been shown it before.
So this is what people **** for, die for,
live for, cheat for, fight for, cry for,
wish for, dream for, wait for, lie for...
So this is love.
And I'm pleased to finally be acquainted with it.
Ano pa ba ang aking masasabi, kung hindi ka makikinig?
I like rollercoasters.
I like going so fast that I don't have time to worry or think, just trust.
And so now here I am. Thinking about what you’ve done, and what I could’ve done instead - realizing that you told me all I needed to know in the beginning. I ignored what you said and chose to listen to what you did. Actions speak louder than words. The phrase slips into my mind yet again. What a fool I was. Statements like these can't become life quotes. Sometimes I guess the truth is in the form of words. Like I said you told me all I needed to know.
The one time your words told the truth, you let your actions lie.
i need to seriously stop writing about you
Never been a dull thing,
But you stared at the stars more than me.
So I'll sit here and watch them for you.
And maybe learn a thing or two,
From the beings who need not do anything to be noticed,
Now that things have calmed down,
I think of you less.
I fear the feelings
and words and poems
and feelings and emotions
were brought on by the rush of moments,
Nothing more than sweet escapes with consequences,
stress-relievers that came with their own stresses.
I will leave this all
Behind for You, if I must.
For Your will, not mine.
'Cause I can't decide
If You placed me here, or if
it was if fact, I.
Praying and waiting.
I left you hints.
You took them
And returned them.
We drew closer.
I left you words.
Which you memorized
And returned to.
We grew closer.
I left you images.
Which you won't forget
And what if's
We might have lived.
I left you songs.
From my heart
Yet I am sorry
We might need to part.
I left you clues.
I didn't mean for this,
For you to feel this way
And yet maybe I did.
Was it wrong?
I don't know.
But I know me
And that's good.
So I can't anymore
But I wish you well
But you don't let me go
Now I don't want to write this...
I left you.
just in case.
You and me
Sitting in the night
Stars speeding by
Never fading lights
Words spewing out
Speaking with eyes
Minds running wild
Silence on the rise
Time is all the same
No fear of running out
When I'm with you
The clock comes to a halt
Stick rods in my brain and
Shock me awake;
To get my attention
I fear that's what it would take.