Please don't forget
That I am both ruthless,
And a princess.

Don't give me fake poetic words.
Just **** me,
Any way you can.
I need satisfaction.

The cool water lifts my spirits as it takes me away
I lose myself in melodious , rhythmic waves
My limbs curling and twirling with each swish
Bending and whirling with every swash
The water is with me, being good to me
Dancing and Harmonizing with my body.

I visit ocean, she always takes me for a joyride
I'm her favourite human, she never shows me wrath.
She carries me far away and then she brings me back to land.


Jan,2015.

I crumble like everyday
  Tears rolling down my cheeks
  Thinking and knowing that I
  can't have u
   That I can't become what you want me
  To be
  Bad thing is there's nothing for me
  To show my inner glow
   my smiles in my eyes
   The brightness in my  teeth

******
Real
Insane
Pain
Please
Leave
Every
Day

This scares me a lot
  Never had it done
  I rather be in a different position
Than being only 1 legged
Scared urgent requesting guys except receiving you

How do you breathe so silent?
I grow more and more
labored in each breath.
I remember the days
you told me to never be like you.
Well I’m not. I’m certainly different,

possibly worse.

Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....



~Imperfect Desire **

Whenever I feel the distance
In times my heart longs love a lot
Remind me to take a while to glance
To what matters most and to what this is about

Whenever my heart is searching
Let it be a time for me to seek You
Keep me from the things that are luring
Fix my eyes on what is true

Remind me we are not really apart
Whenever it feels like a hard pruning
May You keep me still, my Lord, and steady my heart
I trust in You that Yours is the best way of learning