the voice before the beep
flooded me with memories
the calmest nights
and roughest waters
danced together in my eyes
My heart skipped to the beat of
the song we used to blast in the car
and my body turned to my right
expecting you to be there looking back
at me
but you left before the song finished

I found that darkness within,
That which kept me awake,
And would lead me into a spin.

Found under blades,
On mellow nights.
As the sun fades

The shadow appears.
Bringing all my sorrows,
All my worries and fears.

The knife would cure
The overwhelming feelings,
All which I saw impure.

Blood would run dry,
Leaving me scarred.
Yet, I would still cry.

That shadow is gone,
Though there are many more.
I am no longer a pawn.

A true blessing
To have lived
This life
I have lived
A lesson
To
Forgive
A sight
To
See this
Place does
Not belong
To me
Oh, Yes
Why, Yes
It is full of
God's Glory
A walk everyday
A lesson
I am
Redeemed
To learn
His natural
My forgiveness
My obsession
Overturned
A true blessing
I do obsess
To learn