Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 Dec 2019 julie
Orchid T Aspen
They stand
like I almost did,
look like I almost do,
and speak like I almost have.
'=================='

But they walk from me,
leaving me ugly and bared by my ill name,
without any purchase in the words I have left,
'============================='

and they return to those
who waited for them
to just come back.
'==========='

They become
hurting and healing
in one fluid stroke,
forgetting about
the edge they have always
walked along.
'========'

They are ready to stand next to them
instead of me,
in my stead,
by my heart,
'======='

so I turn back to the mirror
and refuse to let
someone who
doesn't want
to be real again
walk away from me.
 Dec 2019 julie
Orchid T Aspen
navy
 Dec 2019 julie
Orchid T Aspen
When the gentle ridges in his lips
would part for me,

++++++++++++++++++++++

and the pretty valleys in his eyes
would wash his misery for me,

++++++++++++++++++++++

and the coral in his cheeks
would twitch twice for me,

++++++++++++++++++++++

and his living hands
would unsmother my words for me,

++++++++++++++++++++++

he whispered that his name
was Navy.

++++++++++++++++++++++

I wanted to walk next to him,
and breathe next to him,
and unsmother him back,

++++++++++++++++++++++

so I stayed
and let my fingers
braid into his grasp.

++++++++++++++++++++++

I gazed with him
at the fleeing rivers.

++++++++++++++++++++++

I lived with him
in his bending arms.

++++++++++++++++++++++

I think of him now
as his hands
that he warmed
with my own.

++++++++++++++++++++++

When the peaks in my mouth
would part for him,
I knew I loved him too,
and whispered my name.
Crying out that life
Is a mindless lesson
Blessed with premonitions
Its a process of elimination
That we deny our promises
In order to confide in the silence
The space between
Reason and innocence
Is only ordinary violence
So we try to lift our emotions
To the heavens but instead
They fall like acid rain
Upon our dinner table
Do you think it's a mistake if i stay here all alone
With you tonight and we end up naked in your bed
Can we pretend like we never asked for this to happen
Some people think that you and I were meant to be
But I think it's all just a story in need of a brand new ending
Maybe if we were to fall asleep at the wheel of all our feelings
We would wake up tomorrow in the ER in need of some recovery
Manic hands that hold you only in the morning
Soaring above the bed we pretended
That we could fly on the edges of our feet
So we led our lives with crazy abandonment
As if hope was an old friend that would pretend
Not to know the meaning of these endings
But you are better off than me at a million different things
But still I think the way you said, goodbye
Was just a little too insensitive
I miss seeing you inside me
Jumping off imaginary bridges
And swimming in twisted circles
Beside the daffodil hillside
Hunger is your watermark
We are chartering new territory
Aboard a cruise-ship of lies
Are we full of awesome communion
Or just jumping to conclusions
A good old fashioned melodrama
Is cushioning your exoskeleton tonight
If money is the root of all confusion
Are we a pair of treacherous blemishes
Full of empty threats begging for reunion
And is this silent treatment for our fear
Or are we weary of steering towards the wind
In a wilderness of new beginnings
And a plethora of intangible endings
To once again contend with
You are trudging towards the waterfall
But hidden underneath the lettuce patch is a dream
A carved image in the center of your delicate being
Life is as fragile as any other shallow pool of water seems
Your bedtime stories were always found to be a little boring
Until the moment you turned around in your mother’s belly
And made the most out of something everyone else had forgotten
You were cast out from the hallways of your family
Haunted beauties and lonely human beings
Making rules only for the ruling
Our truest places always remain facing north
For when we are young we seem strong, thin and determined
And women often argue with each other to begin anything
So please agree to go deep within your body
And make space for these lasting visions
If we are awakened to our feelings
Than someday we might know how to obey them
This is just a sampling of our regrets
To be the best at anything is to protest
That our attachment theories
Are merely empirical strategies
And praxis slips out of my mouth
Like dancing dragons
We climb to the top of Everest
Faster than you can say lightning
Mightier than a sword
Your words stand taller than an evergreen
Pinecones maneuver in the winds of destiny
A painter’s son takes lessons from the master’s failures
Congratulations on lying in your bed again
I befriend the endings so I can begin refreshed
And bed the brides at their commencement ceremonies
How are we so good at pretending
That it's always been alright to ask questions
When we already know better
Than to laugh at these humble representatives
Of our own defenselessness
Next page