Jenelle

Jenelle Jul 2015

untitled

i don't know what to do , i can't seem to make a decision.
there's a part of me that wants to hold on but there's a part of me that wants to let go.
"holding on does more damage than letting go"
but i'll be hurting either way.

why do i want to hold on?
you're like my peace and happiness when everything seems lost.

why do i want to let go?
your words don't quite match up with your actions.

you say you're interested in me and you really like me
but you can never find the time to spend time with me.

no matter how "busy" you are, if you care about the person you will always find time for them . am i right?
so why can't you ever find time for me?

i've given you countless chances and you ruined every one of them
and yet still i come running back to you like some **** fool.

and as i look closer at it , the bad overpowers the good.
but am I really ready to let go?

Jenelle Oct 2014

do you ever?

do you ever just sit and think to yourself, "why am I here"?
do you ever wonder what will happen if you died right at this very moment?
do you ever wonder how people's lives would've been if you weren't a part of it?
do you ever wonder if you mean something to everyone you communicate with?

well I do

do you ever wonder if everyone secretly hates you?
do you ever think of yourself as someone who serves no purpose to others?
do you ever think that no one will love you because you're just an ordinary girl/boy?

well I do

do you ever think you're an awful friend and you don't deserve friends at all?
do you ever think that you should just stop trying because nothing ever goes right?
do you ever want to leave, permanently?

**I do

Jenelle May 2014

Social Injustice

Social Injustice;
from ****** to ****
from kidnapping to ******
all these things our society does best

How cold can you get?
How do you sleep with yourself?
Is your heart at rest?
Do you ever not regret?

We are the reason our nation is corrupt
We are the reason God looks down on us
I know they say God never changes
and will always be compassionate
But what if God gets fed up and turns his back on us?

Over-taxation!
Why do we have to pay so much for the food we need?

Extortion!
Why does the poor pay for the rich to eat?

Religious Persecution!
When did religion become a war of better denomination?

Police Brutality!
This grows each and everyday
Why are we being physically, mentally and emotionally abused by our 'protectors'?
What about the mothers that cry for their children?
All our prayers in vain
You even **** newborn babies,
souls die without a name

Where is your shame?
Do you feel no pain?
Society, we are sure to perish,
if these social injustices remain the same...

*writers: Jenelle and Anise

May 2014

kyla marie

15 texts I (almost) sent you

I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]

are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]

can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]

I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]

that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]

when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]

I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]

it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]

one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]

I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]

why are your words stuck in my head [delete]

I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]

it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]

my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]

the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]

May 2014

Lunar

an artist's love

beware when you fall in love
with an artist
be it a painter, a singer, or poet

for the artist will
paint you
with strokes and hues
in shapes of every kind

sing about you
with heartbreak lyrics
and feelings which rhyme

write about you
with the simplest words
and a secret message she wants to say

beware of the artist,
and her love
one wrong move
and you're an artwork in her display

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