I saw it in you,
I saw the sensitivity shining through your alternative persona and I believed you when told me what I wanted to hear.
Now I'm not sure if anything I believed is true,
There's the real you, hiding in the shadows of life,
There's the truthful you trying to meet my eyes,
There's the vulnerable you, the one in disguise.
I am trying to be with you the way I want to be,
I wonder what I'm doing wrong and I think its neither of us at fault
But trust is hard to give and to receive.
I know you think of her when your with me
But I will never be her, and she will never be me.
Am I only here cause shes not interested?
Would you feel different if it were her?
I have worth yet I feel worthless
You tell me you want me...
You tell me I'm beautiful...
but isn't that what you said to her and more?
You don't want me, you want the idea of me
And I can't give you what she has
I'm not sorry
I'm not angered
I'm plain and simply hurt
For you I'll never be enough
for me I am always to much
I love the way you look at me when the worlds quiet and our eyes meet,
or when you slowly tuck my hair away as your graze my cheek
I've heard you whisper to me when you think I'm asleep, saying everything you won't admit.
Kissing me with affection, not just cause of attraction....
I feel it in your lips, your need for me, but you'll only admit it when I'm asleep.
It's so hard to ever say goodbye to you.
Half the time we say goodbye I don't even believe it's the last time I'll hear from you.
Part of me wants you to leave me without saying goodbye, without looking back.
It would be easier to let you go if I didn't have the choice of letting you stay.
Wish we were simpler together, wish our connection wasn't complicated, but I guess it's part of what I like about us.
The frustration, confusion, agitation, tension, followed with passion, dedication, connection.
You said maybe I'm the one, part of me agrees but I'm also selfish and naive.
If it were up to me I'd keep you safe with me, not to close to push you away but within arms lengths
The question is will you stay?
i want to be the rain
the rain that falls for miles
and lands on your gentle face
for just a split second
i want to be the sky
the sky that is always there
forming a soft, blue blanket
to keep you safe
i want to be the moon
the moon that watches over the night
and soaks up all of your lonely thoughts
with my subtle light
i want to be the sun
the sun that reminds you that each tomorrow
may not be a guarantee
but at least i am
How to poet a life away
Toss the trite learned
Skip grammar mostly too
Rhyme or not is all yours
Step to drummer unheard
Believe in life yet untold
Read a thousand times
More than you write
Live, so you will know
What you are talking about
Take wild leaps in mind
Without losing it too far
Write not only about love
Although that’s all there
Really is or really is not
Fall in some love also
More than simply once
With not only your words
But others in thought
Wishing to poet too
© 2017 Jim Davis
I think you’re beautiful, even if you don’t know who you are
It’s not easy to see who you’ll be next but know they will be better than who you were before
Let me in and let me out
I’m not meant to stay I was meant to get you where you are now
We’re too comfortable in this place we reside
I must seek a new goal for us
So, I must go
But you my child aren’t as lost as you think
In fact, this is the path meant for you
No, it’s no easy trail, Leave the signs behind
You must travel alone
Seek what you believe
We will meet again in different skin
With a connection which was never forgotten
And a new acceptance for life itself
— The End —