It makes me sad to see how fragile your happiness can be.
I wish I could see you smiling for ever.
Not because you are the most beautiful when you smile, you are still beautiful in your pain.
I just wish you never had to know pain.
I want you to be happy because you deserve it.

I listen to that
     which appeases my soul
Country to rap
      pop to classical-
Music satisfies how I feel
         Not your perception...
                Of what 'they' like.
You see "anger",
       when I express passion.
You say "loud",
       When I express joy
'They' are ignorant-
    yet I hold the credentials of the 2%
You fear
   the strength earned
      while navigating the hostile waters
           you created!
bottom line -
     Look inside you
          for I am not your *cliche!

You come to me in a memory
You come as something broken
Something lost
Something long gone
You come as a message in a bottle
However the bottle broke
And the message is soggy
You come like midnight
Dark
A little too quiet
Or a little too loud to be happy
You come as a barrier
You get in the way of me moving forward
You come like an ice cold winter morning
A little too frozen to fix with coffee
You come as a memory of who I was
You come to tell me what I'm not
You come to me when I think I might be alright
But I'm not
You come to me in a memory
To remind me that's all I've got
A memory of something I lost

i hide it away
even scared myself
i jump as he grabs me
i pull myself in tighter
curling into a ball
the world cannot hurt me here
they can't even see me

memories haunt me
and stay in my head
there is no way to erase them
so stuck forever they stay
in my head, in my computer, in scars on my heart
i don't want these memories
they scare me
remind me of places i have been
the person i was

walls are crashing down
caving in on top of me
and the weight of the world finally crushes me
breaking my bones
flattening dreams
i look up and and anger replaces my tears
how have i let them bring me here