how you shove your hand down my ear
controlling my thoughts with your marionette strings
how you shove your fingers down my throat
and reach down until the bile stings
oh, how you cut me open with your glare!
how you harvest slabs of skin from my body
and lose them deep in my closet
how your words keep out the world, how they stop it!
oh, how you shove the painkillers down my throat
you love when i swallow them dry
oh, how your demand is what i supply!
your demand is so simple, so easy to comply
it is clear to me, i must never find the key to my closet
it is clear to me, your words are what stop it
and oh, how your gaze is so attentive!
but why must your love be so conditional?
why must it be the one i want the most?
why must your words be the most traditional?
and i, the most unloveable for you
i, the one who would break my heart in two?
oh, how your marionette strings tug on the bags under my eyes!
oh, how they let me see!
oh, how much i have been missing!
and i, the one who wants to cut you free
i, the one you can’t seem to leave be
oh, you are my love,
but you are no good for me
oh, how i wish i had the key to my closet
oh, how i wish i could find it!
how i wish i could perform surgery
how i wish i could stitch what was lost back onto my body
you temptress, you see
your collar bones can no longer impale my heart in your deathly hug
as much as i wish i could sink into your arms
and hear you profess your love
oh, how i wish i could add you to the groceries
how i wish i could find you in the sugar free
but you are lost, and it is for the better
but i worry you will starve without my dreams
you always shoveled them into your mouth so delicately.
the finished piece for the writing contest, i just submitted it! wish me luck i guess :)