please leave me alone
I'll run off the face of the earth if you so please
but do not think of me

stop telling me to stop
stop yourself and I wont need to
just breathe
and leave

y o u  w i l l  n  e v e r  e  v e n  c a r e  
that I scraped my knee in 8th grade
that I will never scratch off the scab with lime juice and sugar
I  w i l l  n e v e r  b r e a t h e
the same breath as you
while we stand in comfort
t h i s  i  s   m y   p r o m i s e  t h a t
you will never care for me

When I was a little girl
I wondered about too many things
I thought too much

I still am little
With much to learn
But I know now so much new

I thought I was a boy
But no, I am a girl
I was always a girl

I thought I liked boys
But no, I like girls
I had always liked girls

This aesthetic crush is getting the best of me
And I honestly don't know what to do
I merely want to kiss you once, maybe twice

I still am a little girl
I still think too much
But I think I'll let this one slide

dear kiel,
remember all those months ago
when you had to guess what I was
how scared I was when you meant "now"
but all that came after was smiles
beautiful bashful smiles that someone understood


well, something funny happened today
a boy played a trick on me
I thought he was serious
and now he won't talk to me
it's funny, I thought he'd understand

I
I can't handle all this sadness!
This never-ending pressure laps at my being
I can't handle this affection
It eats me alive
Nothing is sane
When everything makes you want to cry

II**
the music plays and tears begin
but I have my bearings once again
the emotion rolls waves on my frame
I can breathe

six days to six months
I'm the second girl you love(d)
but I'm happy I had a shot

I want to explore
free of your judgement
you swore I needed to grow a backbone

look at me be so raw and surreal
look at me with those hopeless eyes

I only wish the best to you, I swear