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Dec 2021 · 73
You
Erali Pisce Dec 2021
You
Do you miss me?
Do you miss me staring at you?
Do you miss telling me to stop?
Do you miss me admiring you playing your games?
All of them
Every last one of them
You mesmerized me
You do still do
I love you
So desperately
and you...
What am I?
An afterthought?
Barely formed
Without shape
I love you
You...
What?
You what?
Sep 2019 · 458
Blood Run Red
Erali Pisce Sep 2019
He was cold,
and my blood was warm.
I was his first **** after a long winter.
He had my body pinned,
down in the snow bed,
and this was the end for me.
I would be his feast,
and no one else would ever have me.
May 2017 · 407
Quote
Erali Pisce May 2017
"Don’t be dismayed by good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes, is certain for those who are friends."
Richard Bach -The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah
May 2017 · 481
Which part?
Erali Pisce May 2017
Part of me always wanted to fix it.
Part of me always wanted it to be you.
Then part of me always wondered what you were keeping me from.
I missed ragged breathing,
I missed drunken binges,
I missed feeling alive.
Now all I seem to miss is you.
Mar 2017 · 762
She Keeps My Secrets
Erali Pisce Mar 2017
I wish I could put into words the way you looked at me,
or the way you're voice sounded.
I wish I could put into words the way you felt under my finger tips,
or the way your hair tangled in my grip.
I wish I could put into words how it felt to watch you go,
but only Molly knows.
Mar 2017 · 307
ilcay2
Erali Pisce Mar 2017
"You like me too much."
"You don't like me enough."
"That's not true..."
I legitimately care about you too.
Oct 2015 · 1.2k
Addiction
Erali Pisce Oct 2015
I'll never forget the night you slammed the door.
It was the same night you grabbed my face and screamed my name.
I'll never forget that night you drove to my apartment drunk,
then told me later it was a lie.
I'll never forget the night in the park.
The night you screamed at me for getting high,
screamed at me for cheating while high.
The night I found out you went through my phone,
while I slept quietly in your bed, four months ago.

Here we are now.
I'm clean,
except for the occasional *******.
That's my secret.
You're drunk,
more often than I'd like you to be.
So what's your secret?

So do I slam doors?
Should I grab your face and scream your name?
Do I take you to the park in the middle of the night?

Unfortunately, no.
I'm the only one who makes mistakes here.
Sep 2015 · 555
Auburn
Erali Pisce Sep 2015
I think about your bare skin,
carresed by the sheets.
I think about your touch,
is it rough? Is it kind?
I think about how you sleep at night,
with someone in your bed.
Do you bite the lip of the person kissing you?
Did their breathing change?
How does your hair smell?
Maybe it smells like rain.

Thoughts of you haunt.
Thoughts of you touching the person I love.
May 2015 · 1.6k
Huh.
Erali Pisce May 2015
Dear God,
I miss you.
Is that weird?
Sincerely,
You're Forgotten Lamb
May 2015 · 1.0k
Save Me
May 2015 · 731
Go Away.
May 2015 · 1.4k
Because Fuck Me, Right?
Erali Pisce May 2015
I'm ****** up.
I'm drunk right now.
Isn't it hilarious?
The last time I was like this was two months ago.
Two months ago when I lost my "best" ******* friend.
Make it stop.
Save me from this stupid thing called love.
I'm incapable of true love.
Is it because of him, her, you, me?
I ask like it matters.
I ask like it ever mattered.
Ha, good one...
******* HOLD ME.
Don't touch me.
Come back to me.
Never leave.
She's gone.
It's my fault too.
Who cares though?
I don't because, well, I'm a ******* mess.
I feel nothing.
Nothing at all.
I don't exist.
I'm not dead.
I'm just nothingness.
I'm nothingness wishing for a drip.
An IV drip.
Drip from the Molly.
The drip from the X.
Numbness from the narcotics.
Kiss me.
Leave me.
I'll rock your world.
Then ask you to go.
I'm saving you.
I promise.
This was for me, not you.
May 2015 · 9.6k
Prince Charming
Erali Pisce May 2015
"I wish to engage in many battles of the tongues with you, m'lady."
Apr 2015 · 2.0k
Vice
Erali Pisce Apr 2015
I've lost my mind.
Somewhere down the line.
Maybe I set it down to parachute the pill.
Maybe I set it down to light the grass.
Maybe I set it down to drink to the last drop.
Maybe I set it down to light the cancer.
Should I even pick it up?
It's probably covered in dust and filth.
Part of me is glad that it's gone.
Why would I trade a vice for a thought?
Apr 2015 · 844
Claire
Erali Pisce Apr 2015
One day, some day, soon.
She always told me,
one day, some day, soon.
We wrote scripts together.
We cried together.
We acted together.
She was my world,
and I was hers.
We never kissed.
We never wanted to.
This is no love story.
This is the story of a lost friendship.
Et tu, Clara?
Apr 2015 · 3.3k
Guess Who
Erali Pisce Apr 2015
He is good.
He suprises me with how good he really is.
He makes me,
well,
happy.
Can you believe it?
Sometimes I can't.
He loves  me.
This
panamourous,
gender fluid,
mermaid.
pagan,
creature
that I am.
I didn't really think that was possible.
Not because I am not deserving of love.
Just that I am different.
He loves my different.
He is in love with my different.
Apr 2015 · 4.9k
Proud of You
Erali Pisce Apr 2015
You finally figured it out.
I'm not someone you should love,
not someone you want to love.
Apr 2015 · 529
Nights Like These
Erali Pisce Apr 2015
I want to end my life.
I don't think that many people would care.
I would be removing a problem.
Everyone's lives could go on without me.
That would probably be best.
#suicide #depression #loss
Mar 2015 · 655
Poetry.
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
Everything is terrible, and everybody *****.
Mar 2015 · 670
I can be happy.
Mar 2015 · 620
For me.
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
This one will fight armies for me,
That one will play music for me,
Here is someone who will smile for me,

You will buy drinks for me. Occasionally.
Mar 2015 · 557
You are
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
Simple
but sickeningly sweet.
Mar 2015 · 2.3k
Perspective.
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
He turns on my favorite movie.
I always watch it alone.
He doesn't like to see me cry.
I am not allowed to cry.
We're comfortable just staying home.
He is embarrased of me.
I love him.
*He knows
Mar 2015 · 1.0k
Nights Like These
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
I'm awake.
Not because I want to be awake.
Not because I'm not tired, I am.
I'm awake.
Because my mind is too creative.
Because my dreams must be accomplished now.
I'm awake.
Because my chemicals are unbalanced.
Because I didn't take my medication.
Mar 2015 · 792
Burned
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
You said you wouldn't kiss me if I smoked.
Now that you're gone.
Every cigarette is an act of rebellion.
Mar 2015 · 3.6k
What You're Not
Erali Pisce Mar 2015
You're not someone who can outline all the interworkings of my body.
Someone who will play my games with me.
who will call me Goober.
will see animals as Brothers and Sisters.
snore loudly in my ear at night.
That's okay.
*I think.

— The End —