you are still the wish
i whisper to every falling star.
i couldn't help but to despair,
that we can still be together.
i always miss your cozy hug,
i long for your sweet kisses,
and still yearning for your love.
i hate myself for missing you.
everytime he's holding me,
and when he is kissing me,
i couldn't help but to think of you.
that you are better than him.
you are still the one i love,
the person that i'll always treasure.
my dear, no one can replace you
here in my heart and in my mind, forever.

it was an afternoon in december when i found you in my favorite coffee shop.
while sitting on the corner and drinking your favorite iced caramel macchiato,
you were observing every people passing by like you're being amazed because of their business.
but your eyes says other than as supposed,
you look so tired and hopeless.
in front of you was the journal you used when there are lots of ideas coming into your mind.
it's as if waving at you, and calling you to write again.
but you cannot find any words to evince the emotional sensation you were feeling,
you never felt so paralysed before, so unable to write.
normally, words flowed out of your fingers like water but everything you wrote seemed stilted and wrong.
all of a sudden, you do not know how to write anymore.
i know you were trying your best,
but i realized that no words are enough to express the pain you're feeling.